Chase stood for a long moment. She had been done with Khaat's bedside, but she hadn't been able to get up the courage to approach Eli's yet. She stood slightly off the side, watching him as his chest rose and fall as he slept. It was good that he was sleeping. Chase had only heard the physical aspects of his injuries, and she was slightly afraid he may be.. well... not right in the head when she visited him. Chase watched as everyone got busy, getting Khaat to a different room for long term treatment, Eli would be moving into the room across the hall from her. Chase bit her lip, and finally decided to approach Eli's bedside. Brian had bustled off to go see to Khaat, and he was finally alone at his bed, fast asleep.
Chase slowly moved closer to him, and saw the wounds on his chest more clearly now. They had stopped bleeding, but there was still a lot of damage. Chase slowly lowered herself into the chair next to him, and prayed no one would come near while she was with him. Willing them away if they saw her, staring with a hard jaw at his broken frame. Elijah Krum.. broken, it didn't make sense. He was the one who was supposed to be strong, determined, he was the one who was always there, like a permanent fixture in her life, that just wouldn't go away, that she wanted, and didn't want to go away. "Elijah.." She whispered, and reached out, gently stroking his hair. "I'm here baby.." She whispered softly and moved closer to him, slowly resting her lips on his cheekbone.
He was warm, way to warm, and it made her pull away quickly. She looked around for a nurse, saw none, and then saw a small bowl of water and a cloth on it. Chase grabbed the bowl, and wrung the water out of the cloth, setting it closer to her before slowly laying the cool cloth on his forehead, looking at the gash that splashed across his nose and cheeks. It was like someone had whipped him.. horribly... making him scream in pain.. Chase could almost see it, and it made her close her eyes sharply, her hand still on his cheek.
"I still care for you.. you know that Elijah?" She whispered, well aware that he was passed out cold. "I was just so... so frightened, I didn't want to be hurt.. so.. when I was told that you were with someone else.. I overreacted.." She whispered, slowly wiping away some of the blood on his face. "My entire life.. has been one person leaving me after another... Sterling. I left him.. but he left me in more ways then one when I told him, the second I could that I had taken a liking to someone else.. I didn't want to pretend with him... his eyes were so cold to me... IT was like he had completely lost himself to another world.. and then Jesse.. he left me... because I was a slut.. you were right, I am a slut, but.. it hurt to badly to hear it again.. first from Sterling.. again from Jesse.."
Chase closed her eyes, but kept going, her hand moving in small circles on his neck, wiping away the blood that had dripped there. "After Jesse, Daniel.. who I didn't know when I first met him, I didn't know him, and then suddenly he was a Vampire.. he almost bit me.. did you know that? I was almost a vampire." She laughed lightly and then went quiet, as though it pained her. "I broke his heart.. but now I hear that him and some other girl are together.. so obviously he wasn't to broken up... then there was my family...." She whispered, opening her eyes to see that his skin was clear of blood where she had been wiping. She moved to a spot on his right shoulder and continued to rub.
"They left me... alone at that house. I can still see my little brother, crying out that the room was full of water, before the door came crashing down on him... I felt so alone that night... it was like they had just.. left me, forgotten me.." She whispered and then moved to rub down his arms, wiping away the blood and grim from his confinement. "Andrew... he only wanted me for sex.. he knew I was a slut, and took advantage of it.. grew angry if I left the house.. we fought constantly.. so I would leave.. go and seek danger just because I knew that if I got hurt.. he would care for me a little bit.. I know, I'm an idiot..." She said and worked down to his hands, gingerly lifting his wrists to rub at the burns that looked like it could have been made by handcuffs keeping him up for a long period of time.
"He broke up with me.. and then I met you Elijah... I met you, and I knew at once that any relationship with you would be different.. even if that relationship had just stayed friends... Sometimes I wish it had just stayed friends.. but then I realized, had it not.. I wouldn't have fallen in love... I wouldn't have come to love you, and everything about you.. I would get so angry, when I heard about every escapade you went on.. I kept asking myself.. 'am I not good enough for him? Have I done something wrong that makes him not want me?' But I knew I couldn't do anything, it was just.. you.." She said to the unconscious Elijah. "Every day.. I fell more and more in towards you... then I found out I was pregnant... and just before the panic set in.. I knew that it was right.. I wanted the baby.. your baby... I wanted something in me, that would remind me of you Elijah.. because I knew it was to good to be true that you would stay with me... I thought you would have left me that day Elijah.." She said sadly, staring at his arm as she gently wiped the blood off of it.
"But one to many stories later.. I snapped... I couldn't take it anymore.. all of the stories.. all of the lies.. I couldn't.. I couldn't live with the fact that I was dating the one person in the entire school who everyone talked about, because he was onto some other chick after getting me pregnant... one more girl, one more story, most of them lies.. but the last one.. something in me snapped, it was like I had known all along that you wouldn't want me.. I'm to plain.. to.. normal.. you couldn't ever love me.. so I broke up with you.. not knowing that the next time I saw you.. you'd be.. well here." She whispered and put her forehead against his arm. "I love you Elijah Krum... I do... I just... I don't know what to do anymore." She whispered her whole body shaking as she slowly wrapped her fingers around his upper arm, pressing her cheek against the now clean skin there. "I just wish that you could love me.. the same way I love you.. You could have died... I can't bare to think, what life would be like, without your smirk.. without your laugh.. or even just you, walking up to me, hands in your pockets, hunched against the cold.. I just.. I want YOU Elijah.. and I can't say anything else that could make you want me back." she whispered and finally went silent, knowing that the entire speech had been lost to the unconscious man, who hadn't heard a word of what she had just said.