Khaat Lupin's Country Home

"Jess, you're not thinking. Stop a second." She went over to Jess and took her arm to stop her. "Alright. So you told him. But here's what you're missing. He's not walking away. If you want to know why, then just go ask him. You have to get this behind the two of you before these babies come. So, no, it isn't pleasant, but yes, it is time. Go back and talk to him. You're a strong woman or you wouldn't have survived this far. Don't trick yourself into believing you can survive strangers but you can't survive Jack. That's just a lie you're telling yourself. Now, stop and calm down and go back and talk to him. Get this resolved before your fear costs you your babies."

jess looked at her "I,...I need to...to think first" she said now sounding calmer to her but insideshe was screaming for she wanted to run back to Jack and hold him to feel him around her "tell him, I will be back in a few hours, I am only going down to the lake. " she said glancing back at the house then to her, slipping her arm out she walked towards a lake.

"Okay," Khaat sighed. She turned and walked back into the house. Maybe time to think would help her reduce her panic. Khaat did understand where it came from, but jess needed to see for herself that it was unnecessary and it was coming from her own mind and not anything Jack was doing. Khaat touched Jack on the shoulder, "Give her a bit, mate. She just wants to go think down at the lake. She'll be okay. Maybe you should go on a walk or go work down at the barn or something and work off all that frustration. It does help, believe me."

Khaat poured herself a cup of tea. Somehow this was not the weekend she had had in mind.

Jack looked at Khaat then down to the lake the direction Jessica had gone "yeah, maybe i will take that walk. " he said his gaze fixed on the lake "Khaat , sorry for all this, I know its probably not what you wanted right now , maybe now she'll be like herself again and the rest of the weekend will go smoothly" he said with a smile.

Jack moved to the barn at first then he headed down to wards the lake he would not go near Jessica but just wanted to know she was safe and not about to harm herself or the twins.

Khaat returned to her rooms and found Miseria gone now too. 'Oh well,' she decided, 'this was to let people have some time to do what they wanted.' She went over to a hidden place in her bookshelves and pulled out Remus's journals and decided to read them over for the millionth time. She never grew tired of hearing his voice in her heart as the words seemed to leap off the pages at her and take her back to when he was part of her daily life. Not all memories were bad. Some were actually comforting. She smelled the pages. She could still pick up his scent from the yellowed pages. She breathed it in, letting it take her back to a sweeter time, when she was younger and believed nothing evil would ever touch her life.

She felt her father's hands on her shoulders. "That old wound again, Khaat?" he asked. He sat beside her. "You know Remus would not want you still grieving for him. But somehow when the world seems to be just too much, I know this is where I'll find you. Trying to breathe him in just one more time. It's not all bad, Khaat. You have some good friends. You never thought you'd have that again." "I know," she said softly, curling into him. "So why not just let us take care of you this weekend? We'll take care of you while your friends sort themselves out. You're still our baby, you know." "Thank you, Daddy," She said softly.

Jessica walked into the house and to where she heard voices she sighed feeling terrible for spoiling the weekend with her rant at Jack "Khaat ?" she spoke softly to her "I am sorry if I spoilt you weekend" she said softly feeling as if her whole world had crashed around her "You've been a good freind I have been such a pig headed suborn B**** about everything" she said feeling her tears well up from inside her again "Ill pack my things so we can head home" she said turning away from her.

"Oh, stop, Jess," Khaat smiled. "This weekend is for us to get away and recover from whatever has been bugging each one of us. And this farm has always been a sanctuary for healing. So, maybe it is just bringing up the issues that each of us need to work on. I think you need to stay and let's work it all out, all of us, together. We'll be far closer, far better friends for it. "

Jess didn't looked at her but just sighed "you heard what i told jack ?" she said turning now to face her "its true all of it, I don't remeber all of it, but thats what i do , thats what gives me the night mares, and the terible fear, I guess, of it happening again " she looked at her she took a deep breath in as she felt one of the babies push against her stomach as she stood waiting her hand resting now suporting her against the door frame.

"Well, I don't know if I heard all of it, but I do know that the more you trust Jack with, the sooner you will get past feeling alone. You'll feel safer and then you'll gain more confidence again, and the nightmares will stop. Life will start to get back to normal. And I think you can use that. Both of you. You've been on your feet for quite awhile. You really ought to rest soon before your feet and ankles start to swell."

Jess nodded as she culd feel it her self her back ached and her body felt heavy "I asked Jack to run me a bath, I gues now is better than never " she said slowly moving to her and gave her a hug "thank you" she said with a smile as she finished she felt another kick and looked at ehr "now you must have felt that one too" she said "he must me going to be a footballer" she chuckled but feeling the ache from her back she turned to the door "guess i'll see you in the morning, if i am not kicked to death" slowly as she could she moved back towards the stairs and up to their room where Jack now stood holding a towel and a grin " your bath is ready" she heard him say and grinned asshe took his hand leading him into the same bath room.


Several moments later she sat in the warm water, Jack now sat behind her as he rubbed her shoulders the lights now off and candels lit the room flikering around them. Jasck moved his hands to her tummy gently washing the body wash over it , to Jessica's suprise the babys didn't kick once , so she lent back against him wrapping his arms around her.

"whats all this ?" he asked softly jess smiled to him and sighed "I am sorry for how I behaved erlier" she said softly she felt his head move to her shoulder " thank you for finally telling me what was wrong, and I will never let anything come to harm you or our children" he said softly as he fnshed with a kiss to her now wet neck.