Clearing Up Lose Ends

She could hear his voice turn from anger to one of concern. Did he have feelings for her she wondered. She looked up at him, "Well its kind of a long story." she replied looking back down at her hands and then back up at him. Her hand went to her necklace as she started to speak.

"Well I ran into Scorpius Malfoy the other day when I was at Honeydukes." she began. "I was always told that this necklace was from my father's family...apparently it is but not the man who raised me anyway." She looked into his eyes to see how he would react to this.

"So I went home and questioned my mother about it." she continued. "She told me everything. I'm really a Malfoy...she..she had an affair with Draco when she was married to my father. She also told me not to trust them either. She said they were more dangerous than I could imagine."

Felix felt his eyebrows raise into his hairline as she spoke, his hand moving away from her cheek and he sat back for a moment, frowning. She was a Malfoy? Well that made sense... it actually made a lot of sense. Malfoy's were just like her. Albeit without the whole, having been in Ravenclaw thing. Felix couldn't help but let a smile flicker over his face. She seemed so concerned about the whole situation, like there was something dirty and nasty to hide about it.

Felix moved his hand to her's, carefully squeezing her hand as he leaned forward and looked into her eyes. "I know the Malfoy's, Christy... Well, not up close and personal, but I've definitely been in their manor home. Do you believe I could have gotten away with half the things I"ve done, without having been involved with them at some point?" He smirked and turned his arm over, touching the tip of his wand to his forearm, something seemed to crawl under the skin, slowly rising to the surface.

"Handy spell actually... hurts like a B**** though." He said with a grimace as the tattoo of a Dark Mark appeared on his arm. "The big dangers behind them are probably nothing more then Death Eater havoc.." He said with a small smile in her direction. "I didn't stick with them long... not after I was thrown in Azkaban for the first time. I thought I was all tough and mighty with them, but they did nothing to keep me out of there... only caused it, so I gave up on their ranks early on."

Felix touched his forearm again with his wand and winced as the tattoo slid back into his arm, slowly fading from sight and not moving as he let his arm fall back the way it had been. "If that's what she meant anyway.."

Christy watched him and listened intently to what he was saying. She understood. Money and power could get you away with a lot of things. Something that she had learned with her twin. Her parents had gotten him out of a lot of trouble when he was in school. The only thing they couldn't prevent was him being expelled from Durmstrang. Even she wasn't sure exactly what he did. It just wasn't talked about. But Godric had already known he was a Malfoy. He was raised to know that Draco was his father. All of this was new to Christy. She really felt like her whole life had been a lie.

Her eyes went to his arm after she saw him wince in pain from the spell. She looked rather fascinated by what he had done. She reached her hand out, her fingertips brushing over the dark mark. Part of her was making sure it was real and the other was just curious about it.

"I think that was only part of what she meant by it." she said looking at him. "She warned me that they are almost as powerful here as my family is back home in Germany. And with easily as much money." She looked down and bit her lip. "She said they'll pretty much be friendly to me if it benefits them..once I'm no longer of a use they'll do whatever they need to for me to disappear."

She looked at Felix, "I just don't want to put you in more danger than you could already be in." Her face turned red. It was the first time that night she had even mentioned being worried about him in the slightest. And really and truly she didn't want him to take off again. "And if you can I would like you to stay..."

Felix felt a shiver run through his body at her light touch. The painful mark was sensitive and her fingers were so light and gentle, it felt like an odd contrast to have such a beautiful woman touch something so dark and evil on his body. He listened to her words and nodded with them, frowning slightly. "I'd agree with her Christy.. they aren't a good family to get mixed up in.. I'm surprised however it went so long without you knowing.. I guess being in a different country helps with that." He commented with a small smile.

Suddenly his small smile turned into a wide grin at her words, his face lighting up with amusement. "More trouble then I'm in? Seriously... are you really worried about me?" He couldn't help but chuckle as he moved towards her and wrapped his arms around her. He had been pushing on the pounds, and was no longer a stick figure of a man, though he wasn't a healthy weight by any means, he had developed some muscle in his abs, chest, and arms.

Christy would be able to feel the change in his body from how he had been last he had held her, to now. And he couldn't help but smile as he rested his chin on top of her head. "I will stay... if that's what you want." He whispered, squeezing her slightly, before carefully leaning back to brush his lips against her forehead. "I will stay for however long you want.. now that I know you're working with Sophia.. there isn't much more trouble I could get you in.. that and you being a Malfoy... if that family shows up on your doorstep one of these days, and tries to use you.. you bet I'll be right here to make sure they don't lay a finger on you." He muttered, pulling her in closer to him again.

"I'll protect you Christy.. alright? I promise.. I won't let anything happen to you.."

Felix felt his mind flash back to the last person he had said something like that to, and at that moment he felt a stab of pain he hadn't felt in nearly two weeks. Not since he had first come to see Sophia. Not since he had started to recover.. the pain that hit him was about ten times worse then anything he had experienced, and he quite suddenly let go of Christy, his hands shaking as he wrapped his arms around his middle, doubled over in pain.

"Oh.. shit.." he whispered, his head falling forward to rest his forehead on his knees, his entire body starting to shake as he burst into a cold sweat. "S-Sorry.." He stammered, wincing as another wave of pain hit him and he doubled again, gasping. "Shit.. shit.. F***." He growled, reaching out to grab Christy's arm, his grip weak. "D-Don't.. worry... just.. ah F***.. Remorse pains.. I think... shit they said this stuff was bad, but damn!" He growled out, his voice raising in volume with each swear word before breaking and going silent, as he rocked back and forth, gasping as wave after wave washed over him.

"I guess it does." She replied. "But I also spent my last year of school here at Hogwarts instead of at Beauxbatons like I could have. It makes sense now as why they wouldn't have wanted me there. I was in school with my half brother." She let out a sigh. It was a lot of information to take in at one time, Even for her.

She blushed as he asked if she was actually worried about him. Wasn't it obvious that she was. She didn't say things just to say them most of the time like some of the girls she had met during her school days and even after. "What can I say?" She asked as he wrapped his arms around her. She could tell he was gaining weight back. "You're actually pretty easy to worry about. At least I can tell you've been eating."

She laughed a little. By the way he feels he's been eating better than you have the past couple of weeks. she thought to herself. She really could have done better at eating but really and truly lately she wasn't hungry...well less hungry than normal would have been a good way to put it. She could really eat when she wanted to but lately she had an appetite worse than a birds.

"You'll really stay?" She asked surprised looking up at him. She seemed slightly surprised, like a child who had gotten the present they wanted for their birthday. But her smile faded into worry. "Do..do you really think they'd try to hurt me?" She asked.

She immediately turned to being worried about him as he doubled over in pain. She could feel how weak his grip was and while she was thankful for it she wish he would squeeze harder if it helped the pain level to go away. "Shhh." She said trying to sound soothing but not really sure what to do as she petted his head trying to make him feel better. "It'll be alright. "

It felt as though Felix's body was rejecting every bad deed he had ever done. No.. it was doubling it. Hadn't he felt these pains enough over the last two years? Hadn't he made up for the pain yet? Obviously not..

Felix felt her hand on the back of his head, and he whimpered, leaning forward so his forehead gently touched her knee, his entire body shaking with pain as another wave shot through him. He spat out a few more curse words, his hand clutching her arm weakly. "S-Sorry.." He muttered, groaning again as the pain wracked his body. "You'd think... after two years... of this shit..." He growled and suddenly bit down on his own arm, letting it go just before he drew his own blood, before going back to rocking.

"Two years... of this... you'd think I'd have.. gotten used to it.. by now.." He gasped and bit down on his arm again in the same exact spot, this time actually drawing blood, his teeth sinking below his skin and he moved away, wiping his mouth on the back of his hand, only to bite down on his thumb, the pain so bad, he didn't even feel his teeth cut into his skin again, leaving a large bite mark and more blood around his thumb.

He stayed like that however, rocking once, twice, and then slowing down, he stopped quite suddenly as the pain passed, and he carefully looked up at Christy, his eyes filled with tears as he moved his hand away from his mouth and examined the bloody bite mark. "I.. sorry.." He whispered, looking her over to make sure she didn't want to run in fear after that display.

"I erm.. that's regular now.." He sighed and wiped his forehead with his good hand, wiping off the sweat as he ran his tongue over his teeth, grimacing. He stood up slowly, barely paying attention to Christy as he made his way to the sink in the kitchen and spat out a mouthful of bloody saliva. Saliva that was red not only from him biting his own hand, but from biting his cheeks and tongue as well.

"You... probably don't want me here overnight now.. do you.." He asked, his hands clutching the edges of the sink as he spit into it again before turning the water on and washing off his hand, not looking at her for fear of what he'd see.

Christy watched, feeling helpless as to how to help him through this. Godric never let her around when he had episodes like these. "Please don't be sorry to me." She replied to Felix. "You haven't done anything to me to be sorry about."

The only thing she knew how to do was to be ready with her wand when spaces and bruises came into play. On one occasion did she actually learn how to give stitches. That was because Godric had refused to go to her parents when he decided to piss off the wrong horse. She watched him bite his arm and hand, wincing herself as he drew blood. She grabbed her wand with her free hand.

As soon as he got up mad started to rinse his mouth out she made her way over into the kitchen, grabbing a clean rag with her hand that was wand free. "Why wouldn't I want you to stay here?" She asked curiously. As she put the rag down and reached for his hand.

"If I didn't want you to be here I'd have to you to leave. Now let me see." She took his hand and pointed her wand at it and his arm where he had bitten them and said a spell for healing the smallest of wounds.

"My brother used to come home all the time beat up and I'd have to do this for him so my mother and father wouldn't see it." She picked the rag back up and ran it under the cool water, wringing it out and wiping off his brow. "I learned how to give him stitches once too. And the muggle way at that. He was always getting into fights with people. He had episodes like you do too." She broke off and looked down.

"Very rarely did I get a look at those. Only when they were really bad did he let me stay with him. I'm not much of a cook but I do know after his episodes he felt better if he ate. I have some take out left in the fridge if you want it."

Felix looked at Christy with relief as she healed up his arm and hand, his lower lip was trembling as he struggled to hold back the after-tremors. He was always extremely shaky after these episodes, but he really didn't want Christy to see him like this. In fact he really hated the fact that she had witnessed the one she had. He'd rather look strong and handsome in her eyes, not weak and shaking. He didn't want her to remember him as someone who regularly was sent into panic and remorse induced pain attacks.

Felix closed his eyes as she wiped his brow with the wet cloth, nodding once. "Your er.. brother.. were they.. pains like mine? I mean for the same reason? My body... rebels, against memories that are too hard to face." He looked at Christy as she looked down and carefully brought his hand up to touch her chin. He smiled slightly and nudged her face up, looking her in the eyes.

"Thank you Christy... I know that wasn't fun to watch..." He said lightly, taking the wash cloth from her hand and wiping off his hands for a second, getting rid of any excess blood that had slid down his skin when he had bit himself. "Normally I didn't have anyone there to..er.. do what you did.. Because of that it usually went on longer then the one you just witnessed.." He sighed and set the washcloth down, before turning to her again.

"I'll be alright Christy, don't worry about feeding me." He said lightly, and leaned against the counter, watching her. He felt a sudden desire to kiss her, a much stronger desire then anything he had faced before. But he held back, afraid he would frighten her if he came on too strong. No, he was more worried she would see just how badly he was still shaking. So he kept his distance from her, his hands on the counter behind him, clutching it so hard his fingernails were white.

"I apologize if I scared you.. or anything... I'm not normally around anyone when those hit, as I said... and.. argh.." Felix let his voice trail off as he looked down at his feet, his muscles trembling as he tried to hold it all in.

Christy listened as he asked about Godric, "I'm not really sure what brought them on in all honesty." she replied looking at him sympathetically. "He was always so secretive about most things, so the fact I even got to see them at all was an amazement. I do know that even the slightest night terror could cause them."

She felt his hand nudge her chin and she let him lift it up to face his. She blushed a little. He was seriously thanking her. She didn't really understand why he would but she smiled a little. "I really didn't do anything Felix."

"And like I said you're pretty easy to worry about." her face looked a little worried for him. She was more than what she let on. She really did care for Felix and she didn't like seeing him like this. She knew the second that he could be able to openly walk in the street he needed to go to St. Mungo's.

"Don't you dare be sorry." she said as she grabbed his arm noticing his muscles still trembling. "I do think we need to get you away from standing until this passes though." She moved to attempt to move towards the bedroom. She figured he might want to lie down after all of this and attempt to let the rest of it pass by...well pass by as easily as it could. She knew she would stay up all night with him if it kept him from having another episode or kept this one at bay.

"No one has ever worried about me in my life... maybe once when I was a kid, before Hogwarts, but besides that..." Felix trailed off and let his eyes rest on this weird woman. "Even Naomi..." He whispered and felt the pain starting to press down on his abdomen again. He gasped and felt her hand on his, leading him towards the bedroom. He had no idea where she was taking him, but he felt her guiding hand towards the bedroom and to the bed.

Collapsing back on it, Felix felt the pain subside slightly and he lay there gasping, his forehead covered in sweat again. "Sorry.. I think I understand now." He muttered slowly, his eyes half open as he attempted to regain some semblance of normalcy. "You really are a weird woman you know that? Helping me out.. being concerned for me? That's not something that happens." He looked at her and slowly brought his hand to her cheek, cupping it lightly.

"Thank you... I.. I want to tell you something..." He said slowly, his eyes half focused as he let his hand fall and his head fall back on the pillow. He breathed for a moment, letting his body calm down before he started. "Do you know everything I've done? My past... the full extent of the bad things I've done? I want to know, because... if you don't, and I tell you, I want to be prepared to be kicked out, or turned in." He let his eyes close and finally let his muscles relax, as though accepting that this might be bad.

"I want to know... if you understand the extent of my past."