new beginnings and new love.

cassidy sighed and looked at him " he or she will always be your son or daughter " she said and closed her eyes as he kissed her for head as she held him " I do love you Clay and I know about the adoption " she sighed but still held him her fingers playing with the skin of his back as they stood under the warm water as she felt it calm her down with each drop she felt . " I hope this won't last ether " she said looking at him as she sighed then moved to ksis him hard on his lips her hand moving down to the small of his back.

Clayton placed a hand on cassidy's cheek as he kissed her back. "She will always be mine," he whispered mostly to him self after breaking the kiss. "I love you," he whispered to cassidy "My Cassy," he murmured picking her up kissing her again. "always mine." everything but the thought of his wife and child left his mind as he stood there with her he turned off the water careful not to drop the love of his life. carrying her into the bed room he laid down holding her close to him.

Cassidy rested against him as she felt him turn off the water and carry her wrapped in a towel to the bed she lay looking at him, she actually felt beter like nothing in the world could make her feel anything but what she did right now, that was love for her husband. She sighed and smiled at him watching his body as he moved to lay with her and holding her close to him. Her tummy now showed a small bump that grew week by week as she felt inside the fluttering that she had grown to know was their child and she rubbed her tummy rolling to cuddle him close. " I love you to clay, nothing will change that " she said moving to lay on top of him as she looked down at him " you feel that, thats our child moving" she said smiling " I can't wait till he or she's born and you can hold him like you do Dylan" she said kissing him genlty.

Clayton smiled as he watched her. he had never wanted to love her or anyone now it was like he needed her to survie to live in the world. "I love you too cassy," he whispered kissing her on the forehead "our child our baby." he whislpered kissing her "i can't wait either," he whispered. "now sleep. you need to rest more now. you'll need to rest more the further along you get." he held her close to him quietly humming a song he had hurd long ago. he didn't remember the words any more but the tune was forever stuck in his head when he was around cassidy. when they where apart thoughts of her replaced the song.

cassidy heard his words and the song he hummed she wanted to say that she wanted to stay with him and spend some time with him but her own body gave her away and she yawned again " I don't want to i just want to be with you " she said but yawned again " I will get fat " she said placing her hand on her tummy feeling the small rounded bump that already sat there " im already showing, clay " she looked at him " I'll only get bigger, I can't work and soon i'll not be able to bend down to do my shoes " she nuzzled closer to him .

"there is plenty of time to spend together," Clayton whispered gently rocking her back and forth. he smiled picturing her the way she described to him. "and i'll love you even more just because there is more to love." he kissed her on the forehead. "I'll even help you tie your shoes." he said smiling at her. he feel silent for a while thinking of a way to get her to go to sleep for just a little while. "How about you take a nap then later we will go out. we will go somewhere. where ever you want to go. even if that is three thousand miles away." he said kissing her on the forehead.

cassidy looked up at him " you wil?" she asked with a small smile letting her head rest against him she sighed drifting into a deep sleep and not hearing his last words she pictured a feild two children running around at their feet an a third growing inside her and she was happy he smiled at her and she at him as he picked up there child and held it in his arms. Cassidy smiled in her sleep " I love you clay... mumm.... that feels good " she said softly as she pulled him closer to her.

Clayton smiled as he watched her fall asleep. "i will," he murmured holding her close to him. wondering what his wonderful wife was dreaming about he slowly started to drift to sleep. he wrapped his arms around her tighter in his sleep smiled to him self like he was hiding something from the world. he dreamt about their future life. he dreamt about there kids lives and couldn't wait to hold their child in his arms as he new held its mother. later he woke up carefully and quietly he went to make her some food then he packed a bag for them ready to go anywhere she wanted once she woke.

Cassidy woke slowly feeling some what better and less tired she felt hungry right now but also she just wahted Clay to hold her close to him her heart was all his and she felt alitle foolish feeling jelosue of Dalilah and dylan she ahd her own child to think of and Clay was with her and not Delilah . loking up she kissed him resting her head beside his on the pillow loking at him and smiling.

"there is freshly cooked food on the kitchen table if your hungryt then we can go where ever you want," he whispred kissing her on then head "i'll finish packing the bags and then we can go to paris or where ever you desided and we can go shoping for the baby and other stuff and we can have a real honeymoon." he said packing some more stuff into the suit case. he smiled down at her love in his eyes. "do you want me to go get you some food and you can eat in here?" he asked "is ther anything special you want me to pack?" he was looking around then turned back to the closet again then back at the suitcase.