OOC: Much. thanks. lol
Brian had spent the afternoon with Khaat and by then she was feeling bonded to him again. She still hadn't done what would have been ultimate bonding--the confession of her use of Rob's potion. She realized that Brian would be outraged. She knew he would be so full of anger and rage, that where Brian was concerned she was trapped. She didn't want to lose him. She didn't dare tell the one person she loved the most. The one she was closest to.
She didn't want to be like this. Much as the mind numbing helped her cope with life, it also made it immensely complicated. She had to shrowd herself and how thin and gray she was becoming. She had to use glamour spells and glamour potions just to maintain who she had been without the potions.
He hadn't know when she had broken down and wept uncontrollably in his arms what it was about. He mistakenly thought it was about Barker, and she let him think it. She didn't correct him. But her pain was about this horrible trap she had created for herself. One she didn't see any way of getting out of. The only one that perhaps might stand by her again to help her get off was Rob. But, then what?
Who would stand by her when all the demons of her own mind came back to claim what was left of her heart and her soul?
She got up and showered, fortifying herself with more potion, and more glamour spells and more glamour potions. She dressed in a red, Asian dress, made of embroidered brocade, with a mandarin collar, closed by black silk frogs. She put red embroidered flats with it and ruby and diamond earrings.
When she came out, he was dressed in casual tan pants and a light blue shirt. He smiled. "There's my girl," he smiled, kissing her. "Come on. Let's go for dinner." He reached out his hand for her. She took it. He held her hand now, but would he still hold it when he knew what she had done?