The conversation which was progressing quickly between the current head of the death eaters and the former – albeit quite recently former – head kept Remy at least somewhat entertained as she allowed her eyes to follow from one to the other. The tension between the two pale blond individuals was palpable and it was clear that neither harboured any real affection for the other. Respect, perhaps, but not affection.
What it really boiled down to was the fact that both Sandra and Lucius held a great deal of power. Their power stemmed from different places and was exercised in different ways, but the two of them were not all that different when it came right down to it. Both of them exercised unfailing loyalty to the dark lord – there was that word again, loyalty – but seemed overtly concerned with their own rise or retention of prominence. It was like watching a tennis match as the pair of them struggled to remain calm while gaining the upper hand.
It never ceased to entertain Amelia, watching the emotional displays of others. True, Sandra and Lucius were both well practiced in maintaining straight faces, but to someone who had worked hard to refine the art of mimicking human emotion, they could not hide what they were feeling. The twitch at the corner of the lip, the hesitation, the slight widening or narrowing of eyes; these were all signs, however subtle, of the way each one was feeling.
Though they had not come to an agreement, Sandra and Lucius soon moved on from what amounted to a tension-filled staring contest (the words were more or less pointless formalities, in Remy’s opinion) into a description of the plan for the Death Eaters. Sandra wasted no time in performing a swift bit of magic which brought the ministry into view on the table, and Remy could not help but marvel internally at the display of power. This woman was something to behold, and though she didn’t know how yet, Remy knew she would align herself with Sandra. That kind of power could get her access to a world of possibilities she would never be able to reach on her own.
Remy did not answer when Sandra asked about whether or not the Death Eaters believed the dark lord to be capable of rising once more. Remy didn’t much care one way or the other if Voldemort came back; it was all the same to her. All that really mattered in that situation was that Remy be on the right side of the fight if Voldemort ever did manage to haul himself out of the grips of Hades once more. Until then, she would hold her tongue on the subject. It would be difficult to mimic the proper emotional response to such an obscure and irrational subject.
As Sandra addressed the questions which were bound to rise from her proposal, Remy listened carefully to the woman’s plans. She was methodical in her approach, and she was not all bark and no bite. She had actually thought of a plan to topple the Order of the Phoenix, though she wasn’t exactly volunteering herself for the job. Instead, she was asking for one among them who would take on the task of infiltrating the enemy.
I could do that, Remy thought to herself, even as another of the Death Eaters volunteered herself for the job, Though they wouldn’t have to obliterate me. I could do it without conscience getting in the way. I wouldn’t need to have my alliances oblivatiated, because they are inconsequential at best. I could change my alliances to the Order right now if I thought it was most beneficial to me.
But saying these things aloud, or even volunteering for this task would be dangerous. As of yet, no one knew of Remy’s…. disorder is what they called it, but she preferred the term ‘advantage’. To volunteer for this task would jeopardize her relative anonymity in the Death Eaters and in the community at large, which would make swift escape far more difficult if it ever came to that.
“It’s not all about nerve,” Remy said instead, turning her eyes onto the blonde woman who had volunteered for the task, “Sometimes it is about who is fit for the job. What makes you believe you could take on such a task?” Remy inquired. She was not questioning this so she could volunteer in the woman’s place, but rather to show that she was involved in the planning and plotting. This involvement would serve as evidence of her commitment to the cause should anyone ever question her alliances. It was these little pieces of foundation that Remy consciously placed because she never knew when she would need them to save her ass if she ever found herself in a bind.