Christy wasn't awoken by the slightest movement he made in getting her up to her room. It was something he would be thankful to her mother for having placed a charm on her when she was younger that hearing that song would put her into a deep sleep for at least several hours.
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What I would give to have this night taken back from me, to know the evil that Nick has done with me on the other side of the door. A two year old child. She had been bitten, that was positive but Godric had the cure, she could have been saved. She was the only family he had left and he murdered her, probably without even using his wand. I was at that house, it was a carnage. Blood had caked the walls and you could already smell the rotting of his parents flesh by the time I had gotten there. It really would have been too much to bare for him and even myself but I went through it for him. I did not go through it for him to kill the only family he had left. She was terrified when I picked her up out of her bed. She was half asleep from crying out for Nicholas. I calmed her down into a sleep before I apparated back. Was it wrong of me to do. I honestly think I should have hid her away and just told him she had died, but now I'll never know.
The second just a few days before she had arrived there.
I find my self at odds with the world. I deserve everything I've ever gotten in life, including Nick. He has been a treasure to have spent my life with, but alas he can not be the one for me. I thought and had a strong feeling he was but after what I've witnessed that night he can not be. My thoughts are to him every day and I can't bare to be apart from him even though I know I must. I still can't get up the nerve to take off this damned engagement ring. Maybe its a sign from the stars above that he and I were ment to be but other than that I have no other feelings about that, not even a vision or anything in a star chart or tarot reading. I shall spend the rest of my days as a loveless wretch who should make everyone around them miserable. Then again these could just be my drunken ramblings as I haven't eaten or slept since that fateful day. One would wonder why I look like I do but then if they knew, they would understand. I can't even face my cousin. He and I are at odds right now, I don't like this feeling, he's always been by my side for everything but now...Now he seems to have turned on me like the rest of this gods forsaken world. He is my twin in everything except our parents. He is the darkness to my light. I can't stand the thought of him hating me for this but I don't know what else he feels as he no longer lets me close enough to him to find out.