He felt almost feather-light and for Baldric there was no other place in the world he wanted to float off to than home with his lover. It was strange for him to think that this was going to be his life. As clichéd as it was, had anyone told him that this was going to be the way it was and that the amount of strife was such that it was so many years prior, Baldric wasn’t entirely sure he would have believed it or contrived it to happen in the same way. In fact, he wondered what would have happened to them if he hadn’t left home that night on impulse and wound up in the Leaky Cauldron. He truly wondered now, as his eyes roved across the features of the man he loved between aching kisses he didn’t think he’d ever feel he would grow weary of, whether it all would have happened regardless. Or, perhaps, it would have happened as it was initially believed life was supposed to pan out – especially for the blonde man. He wouldn’t have change it, of course, but he couldn’t help but wonder. It was one of those what if moments, he supposed.
“Good,” he chuckled, running his hands up and down Ben’s arms. “Because you are mine. I can’t possibly spare you. There are many things I need to do for you,” he murmured, lifting his mouth to Ben’s ear. “So I’m yours, too. All yours. For as long as you want me.”
He nudged Ben’s nose with his own and smiled, stealing back one last kiss before stepping back, conceding, albeit wordlessly, that there was credence to his lover’s point. He had a room full of students he needed to deal with. Unfortunately for them, though, there wasn’t one ounce of him that wanted to go back in and teach. He hoped the Headmasters would forgive him just this once – for there were more important things at hand.
“Stay here,” he whispered. “I won’t be a moment.”
Baldric squeezed Ben’s hand and slipped back into the room where the chatter died down and all eyes turned to the professor. Baldric looked at himself and with a wry, shy grin ran his fingers through his hair. He licked his lips thoughtfully and tried to keep back the whine that rumbled at the back of his throat, reminding him who it was he’d tasted on his tongue. There was nothing else for it. Dropping his hand down to his side he declared that they could do the reading for what he was taking about or he’d catch them up in a workshop later in the week during lunch because he was going. He needed to go. There was nothing else for it. So Baldric picked up his bag, stuffed his books and papers inside semi-clumsily, donned it on his shoulder and smiled, shaking his head in half apology before wishing them all a good day.
“Okay,” Baldric emerged from the classroom breathlessly. “Come on. I’m stealing you.”
Seizing hold of Ben’s hand, Baldric led him off down the corridor as quickly as possible, hoping to get ahead of the students who would probably meander back up to their rooms themselves. Hopping up the stairs with this bizarre spring in his step that would be perfectly understandable to anyone who knew what was going on, Baldric rapidly drew towards his quarters and to the portrait of the jester and a bowl of fruit which guarded the solar. He stuttered out the password, half mad with excitement, and though the jester looked at him with a dubious expression as he pealed the apple in his hands, the door swung open all the same and Baldric pulled Ben inside.
The living room into which they stepped was rounded, not unlike the tower common rooms. Tall windows rose up, opening out across the grounds, looking towards the lake. Through them, bright sunlight shone in, tickling its way across the carpets which covered the dark wood flooring. A fireplace was situated directly opposite the painting entrance, manned either side by further windows. Around the walls on the entrance side, bookshelves were a bulging testament to the amount Baldric got through on the quiet. A long sofa covered in a thick, warm throw and plush cushions dominated the room and was framed either side by Queen Anne arm chairs that had matching ottomans poked underneath. Between the sofa and the fireplace there was a coffee table swamped with essays that still needed marking, evidence of the endeavour being the empty decanter of what had been firewhisky and a glass sat next to it all, the latter only having a slither of the amber liquid in the bottom. Across the mantelpiece were pictures of everyone he held an affection for – an overwhelming amount of them being of him with his family of friends, of him with Millie when they were in their early years at Hogwarts, later ones of him with her and Keiran and an overwhelming amount of him and Ben. There was even on of Baldric and Mrs Hudson in a pretty, intricate frame. There was only one of him and his family, in a chipped, older frame that looked well-work and in one corner had tape where it had been smashed, presumably. Books, also, littered this surface along with a pair of glasses and his old Gryffindor scarf.
The man composed himself enough to wait and hang up his jacket and his bag on the stand beside the door and he took Ben’s things, doing the same to them before taking off his shoes and chucking them into the box beneath the stand where an array of footwear was stashed in an ordered disorder. He smiled and took Ben back into his arms with a gentle tug at the elder man’s sides. Baldric caught hold of Ben’s mouth in his and sighed happily, relishing the ability to do it without fear. He smiled and pulled away, reaching up to rub his hand across his lover’s cheek.
“Will you let me?” Baldric asked softly, tugging at the hem of Ben’s shirt to articulate his desire.
He knew it was a long shot. He also knew it was probably crazy. Yet, Baldric was holding out on the hope that perhaps Ben would let him. Merlin knew it didn’t matter to the blonde man. He’d long converted himself to the fact that what was imprinted in his lover’s skin was not to be admonished but to be understood. Rather, that what had first been evidence of ill was now evidence of survival. And Bae was proud of Ben, regardless of what the other man thought of them and everything that had gone on. But, without the opportunity to change his mind, Baldric had been stuck.
Stepping back, Baldric laced his fingers gently in Ben’s and pulled softly, guiding the elder man towards the younger’s room. Behind him, Baldric reached out with his other hand and opened up the door into the bedroom. It wasn’t so unfamiliar to Ben, he didn’t think. Yet, still, it was very much the property of the blonde man who had, in the short time he’d been at Hogwarts, acquired much and made it his home.
Another rounded room, a theme for his rooms in that particular portion of the castle, and natural light continued to have a big impact. A large, four poster bed in mahogany with burgundy curtains dominated the room along with another fireplace and some other bits of furniture including a chest of drawers, a wardrobe and his trunk. Another bookshelf was also teeming with literature and overall the room, just like the living room, was lived in. It wasn’t meticulously tidy and there were things around that could have been in better places but he was certainly one for actually living in the places he occupied, not just existing within the parameters.
“Please,” Baldric murmured, finding Ben’s gaze. “Let me love you.”