new beginnings and new love.

Cassidy heard him by the door she stood up and walked over hearing his words she slowly opened the door and saw him sat beside it. she listened more to his soft words " Clay... I don't want you to leave " she said quickly moved to sit facing him as she quicklywrapped her arms around his neck and held him close to her kissing his neak as more tears rolled down her face as she sniffed. " I don't want you to leave me... ever, It would brake my heart if you did, your like the other half of my heart, I'm....I'm sorry I shouted at you " she sniffed back more tears " I...I guess I am scared that you won't love me when im all big and fat " she said softly as she took his hand in hers and held it against her " This is my first child and i just wnt things to be perfect yet i can't help feeling like im getting ugly." she looked at him " my tumys getting bigger ,my chest hurt and my ankles swell, Im just glad teh sickness has stopped "

"Your not becoming ugly." Clayton whispered hugging her "every day you get just a little bit more beautiful." he kissed her on the shoulder. he held her at arms length so he could look into his eyes. "I won't leave you unless you ask me to." he whispered and wiped away her tears. "I love you. and I'm going to love this baby like no child has been loved before. she is going to be so spoiled she will believe she is a princess. a princess just like her mother." he whispered kissing her.

Cassidy looked at him as she wiped her eyes and sniffed as she listened to him " I want you to stay forever clay" she said " I will never make you leave because I don't want you to , because I love you " she said and felt his kiss she could not help feel as if she melted into his arms her hand moved to his cheek caressing it gently and sighing as she rested her head against his " I will never ask you to leave me...us inteshonaly " she said softly now smiling at him as she presewd her lip against his deeply kissing him as she did her tummy fluttered and sme smiled " I think some one else knows " she placed his hand on her tummy so he could fel it " she only moves when your close or talk softly" she admited.

"I think she knows who her father is," Clayton whispered kissing her he held her close to him, "I also think she loves her mother," he said kissing her. He stood up picking her up in his arms and carried her back into the bed room. he sat on the bed Cassidy in his lap. "i won't leave you or our princess," he whispered kissing her, "i love you.Nothing will change that." he looked at her as he spoke. "next time i speak with out thinking slap me please and I'll do the same i did to day. i don't want to hurt you." he whispered kissing him.

Cassidy looked at him and nodded " she loves her father as I do " she said and wrapped her arms around his strong neck as he lifted her and carryied her back to the bed. Sitting there she nodded " I will but promise me you will never say those words again " she asked now leaning against him she took a dep breath and smeled his aftershave smiling as she liked the smell of it " she will be so lucky to have a father like you Clay" she sid softly as she played with a button on his shirt as she sat with him " Clay Im sorry about before , I guess with everything going on its just got to me a little " she said looking up at him.

I promise i won't," Clayton whispered kissing her on the cheek. one of his hands laid on her stomach the other on her side supporting her back. "She will be lucky o have a Mother like you." he whispered kissing her. it had hurt him to hear her crying and he never wanted to hear that again. "it's okay Hun, I'm sorry about what i said," he said quietly holding her close to him.

Cassidy felt safe in his arms her body and mind relaxing against him she could not help but finds herself drifting into a calm relaxed sleep against him but only for a moment ss she forced her self awake what about shopping I don't have any maternity clothes and baby things " she said looking at him as she yawned " we should go " her voice sounding realy tired as she looked at him. " I wanrt to go shopping but being like this feels too good to let go " she said and snuggled into his chest and sighed.

"how about you take a nap and then we will go shopping for stuff." Clayton suggested kissing her on the cheek. "I'll give you my credit card and then you can buy everything you want and I'll carry it all for you." he whispered kissing her. he gently rocked her back and forth trying to laugh her to sleep. "you don't even have to sleep that long just for a while." he whispered kissing her on the fore head. "i promise i won't leave." he spoke softly as he held her to him trying to sooth him.

cassidy yawned again as he spoke she gently nodded but her arms snaked arund his waist holding him " no you won't im not letting go of you " she said half way threw she had yawned her eyes now closed as she held his shirt at his waist behind him her hands gripping him as if not wanting to let go of him.

After half an hour she woke with a start shaking slightly " Clay?" she said shanking " I had a dream you left us all alone just me and three children " she said and held him just to reasure herself he was real and there with her holding her , after a moment she calmed down and took a deep breath " just a dream, nothing more " she said to ehr self and moved to face him kissing his lips gently " you are the most sexyest man in this room " she whispered .

"I'll never leave you," Clayton whispered hugging her. as she calmed down he held her he just sat there quietly holding her and smoothing down her hair with his and.she was calm again and kissed him. "Your okay," he whispered looking at her then she kissed him. "your the most sexiest woman on earth," he whispered. He had seen many women in his life and he really meant it when he said this to cassidy. she really had changed him. "now what do you want to do? Go shopping or stay here?" he asked "or we could o to the ranch." he had promised to take her shopping.