With her eyes closed, it took Amelia several minutes to come to terms with the fact that the shaking had stopped. The quake that her wand had produced did not stop immediately, but rather subsided over time. At first, Amelia had feared that her mistake would cost her life and those that still remained in the building, the latter a greater dread for her than the former. But after a few tense minutes of holding her wand aloft, frozen on the spot, Amelia felt the rumbling quiet and she was able to peek one eye open to make sure that her counter spell had had the effect she hoped.
Looking around, it seemed as though her senses had not deceived her. Although there was rubble all around her, a clear sign that the spell was still in the experimental stage, the quaking had ceased and the scene in front of her no longer moved up and down with an unseen force. Letting go of a breath she had not known she was holding, Amelia exhaled heavily. Opening both eyes now, Amelia lowered her arm from its place above her head, letting it and her wand fall alongside her.
Amelia, visibly shaken by the events, still did not move even after her mind regained its function. She watched as the adults and older students filtered back in to the tea shop, some to gawk and others to help with the repairs. Looking around, she could see that the damage to the building and its contents was extensive. Everywhere, broken glass, spilled tea, and splinters that had once been chairs lay on the floor. Most of the decorations on the walls had fallen to the ground, and it seemed that not one of Madame Puddifoot’s teacups had survived the spell.
Maybe this will be her chance to purchase some that actually hold a human-sized portion of tea, Amelia’s mind probed, trying to look on the bright side of a very dismal situation. How had she gotten into this mess? She had come here to avoid notice, to read her book in silence, but instead she had ended up being the critical element in a death eater battle and – this part was epitomized by the steely gaze of the owner – the bane of Madame Puddifoot’s existence.
Amelia winced and looked away from Madame Puddifoot, not able to meet the gaze of someone she knew was very, very disappointed in her. Amelia could handle many things, and she didn’t have much fear. She was afraid of emotions, yes, but she had spent so much of her life controlling them that they had become to seem a secondary fear to one other: the fear of disappointing people. Amelia worked so very hard to live up to the expectations others had of her, to always say the right things, and to give her parents the perfect daughter they wanted.
But perfect daughters don’t destroy tea houses. Burdened now with both the exhaustion of having used the spell and the weight of the stares that were now beginning to fall on her, Amelia extended her arm behind her to find a chair, finding one after a moment’s search and collapsing into it. She was surprised to have found one still upright and intact, but this paled in comparison to other emotions. The moment she hit the chair, fatigue settled over her body and mind, and with these so thoroughly taxed Amelia did not have the energy to try to bend her emotions to her will. Let them be what they would be.
This letting go the dam which held her emotions back was an unexpected turn of events, and it happened so rarely that Amelia did not have the capacity to anticipate what it might bring about. She let her head fall into her hands, covering her face so she would not have to endure the looks everyone was giving her, some of confusion, others of anger, still others blank. It was only after she felt the dampness on her face and raised a finger to confirm that she hadn’t been imagining it that she realized she was crying.
About the same time, Amelia heard Elijah’s voice from above her and she pulled her hands away and tilted her head to see him standing there. He wasn’t looking at her, his eyes averted to the left, though at what she didn’t bother to check. Seeing him there, realizing what he must think of what a mess she was, Amelia immediately brushed the few tears away with the back of her hand, trying in vain to stop them.
He can’t see me like this… Amelia thought, pushing harder against her cheek as if that would keep the dampness there from showing.
“I-I’m f-f-f-fine,” Amelia answered, hating herself for blubbering. But she couldn’t stop herself. Whether it was the cuts on her leg – suddenly far more painful now that her parasympathetic nervous system had taken over -, the prospect of facing her father – and likely the ministry – for performing experimental magic, mental exhaustion from the past half an hour, or some combination of the three, Amelia’s eyes continued to leak those traitorous tears, averting Elijah’s as though by not looking at him he might not see her breaking down.