Delving into Another World

"You bet. But why would I have to find you. We will be hanging out." Zoë said with a smile and laugh. She knew that this was jumping to ideas but she could hope. Zoë was always looking for a good friend to hang out with. "But that is up to you. We don't have to hang out or whatnot if you don't want to. I wouldn't want to impose on you."

When the conversation turned back to the Vampire issue, Zoë looked back at the table. He had tricked Catalina. "You know. For some reason that just doesn't really surprise me. Sad to say but it is true." She had a dealt with a few vampires and knew that they were a very tricky bunch. "I haven't had any good luck with them. I am sure that not all of them are like that but most are. They are not trust worthy."

Listening to Catalina talk about what her parents thought of her being outdoor made Zoë chuckle a littler. "Now that is funny because that is exactly what my mother thinks. Of course it really only relates to her girls. In her opinion we are suppose to be inside, dressed in pretty dresses or whatever. I hated it. My father and brother were really the only ones that understood my wanting to be outside." It was the truth. Zoë knew that she had inherited her love for the outside from her father.

Zoë sat glancing from time to time back to Catalina. She could tell that she was angry toward something. "Fear can cause many different things cowardice is only one." This was very true and Zoë had known this from personal experience. "Also what one person fears might not bother or even reach on another's radar."

"I know they aren't the most pure of purebloods. That is one of the reasons I think it's the funniest when they are so for keeping everything so pure. They are the biggest hypercritics ever known to man." Zoë told her. She sat listening to Catalina laugh. It seemed that Catalina needed the laugh and it soon became very contagious.

Zoë noticed that Catalina had grown quiet again when she had mentioned her last name. Why had she done this? Many thought went through Zoë's head. She nodded in agreement to working the details our later. After all they would have plenty of time for that later.

A smile flashed across Zoë's face. It was official, she had made a new friend. That was good on one hand but on another it made her worry about what the other girl would be getting herself into being around Zoë. "Then it's a done deal. We will hang out and have fun. It will be great."

Zoë sat and listened to Catalina talk about the guy. The way she talked about him held both anger and love. But Zoë could tell that the love was a distant feeling, that angrier was the main feeling now. "You never know. You might still be able to get back at him. There is always a way." This made her think for a few minutes. There was always a way.

Catalina's next question threw Zoë for a little loop. What about Ne'Os? Zoë looked up suddenly, looking directly at her. "What about him?" She was very wary about this question. She didn't trust him.

"That's all a person can do. You have to live your life for yourself and no one else. That's the only thing you can do. If you don't then whose life are you really living." Zoë asked. It was the truth. So many people thought they had to live like their parents or family wanted them to live. But you can't do that. You have to live for yourself and only yourself.

"Fear is a interesting creature. That is the honest truth. No one can ever tell what fear will do to you." Zoë knew this first hand. She never wanted anyone to have to know or go thru what she has had to. "I hope you don't either."

Zoë looked at Catalina for a few moments. "That is a very good question in deed. Not many Order members have that complex. A few but not many. You see that mostly with the Death Eaters." She shook her head at the entire idea.

"Do you not think that seeing you happy would be a form of revenge toward him. Obviously he wanted you hurt, you in pain. Seeing that that didn't happen will be doing just that." Zoë tried to explain. Of course causing pain would be a lot more fun but maybe not necessary. But it was true that she could get revenge and not inflict pain on him.

Zoë looked back at Catalina. What had Ne'os told her. "Yea I know he is a vampire." Taking a moment to collect her thought she tried again. "Let me give you a little warning. He can't be trusted. Or let me say. He has done nothing for me to trust him. If anything its the opposite. Just be careful around him. He might not be what he seems."

"I don't think you will disappoint them. After all they are your parents." Zoë said looking back at the table. "Plus you have friends now. So they aren't all you have." She flashed Catalina a smile to try and prove the comment.

"I will say this much about fear. One never knows what they will do during those times. You can only hope that your brain rationalizes instead of uses the fear." This was true. It didn't always work like that though. "That's a good way of thinking. You did make the right choice."

Looking back at Catalina Zoë couldn't help but shrug. "True you can. Sounds like you have more compassionate than I am or would be. Because if a guy did that to me, he would know the meaning of the word pain. But then again that is just me." She couldn't help the way she thought. People who did wrong by someone should be made to pay for it. It was as simple as that, right?

Zoë watched Catalina as she said her thought about Ne'os. Was Zoë wrong with her thoughts about him. There was just something about him that made her not think so. "Maybe your right. I would just be careful. He has been known to turn on someone very quickly."

Zoë smiled a small smile when Catalina reached out and touched her arm. "You are welcome. I'm just glad to have someone to talk to about some things as well." It was the truth. After some of the things that has happened she didn't have many people to talk with.

"Oh trust me I know what that was like. My mother was the same way. I just hope that what happened to me don't happen to you. I mean when I couldn't become the "girl" she wanted she got rid of me. To her it's like I never even existed." Zoë said shrugging again. "But that is all in the past. Nothing I can do about it now."

Zoë smiled at Catalina again as she told her that she really valued her opinion. "Thank you. I'm glad to be able to help really."

Zoë shrugged her shoulders. "You might be right. But when you turn your cheek you are only allowing them and even more people to stomp all over you. You have to stand up for yourself and show others that one might do that but no one else. Because if you don't they all will do it." Zoë didn't know what else to say about that. She had tried to be nice over and over and people always used her. She didn't know what else to say or do.

Zoë sat thinking about Ne'os. "Sure. I just want you to be careful thats all." She looked back up at Catalina as she sat trying to reassure Zoë with a smile. But all Zoë could think about was the pain that Ne'os was known for causing.

"I'm sure you will be. You are doing a very good job of listening right now." Zoë said smiling.

"Yea I know what you mean. But she doesn't so I have accepted that she won't and have gone about my life without her." Zoë said with a sadness to her voice.