Duplicity had not been until very recently something that Beth had dealt her hand in so deeply. She had always been honest. Even when undercover she knew to switch off, to change out of the clothes, to take her hair out of the mess it had been allowed to get in. She’d managed as much as that. She’d managed to get out of the majority of the former. Yet, she’d not turned off. Somehow, being like this, being Zelda, allowed her to be more of herself than when she wore her own clothes, flashed her badge and was sent careering off down an alley because Holden never liked to chase their suspects but she, she’d always gotten a kick out of it. She didn’t enjoy the job that came with being ‘the other woman’ – as it were – but she did relish the freedom of being unknown. The Wizarding World were all too willing to forget a face – though she couldn’t really blame anyone for not worrying about her face when they could look at the kaleidoscopic beads hanging off of bras and panties. The face could be anything, the person anyone, but the body was universal and universally attractive, too. Desire was to be the folly of so many.
Sat in the Leaky Cauldron so near closing time, her boot-clad feet tapping an idle rhythm against the bar, she felt every inch the jezebel that the case had slid her into being. Her hips ached from being up in one of the cages in the early evening – which really meant nine o’clock – and in part she felt as buzzed as she was not. So much alcohol had passed her lips it could have sunken as small ship yet she sat sober, painfully sober, painfully awake with nothing to show for an evening of, after being dragged out of the cage, being passed from lap to lap for sloppy kisses and overly groping, sweaty palms. She could deal with it better now. A few months on this job had made her something of a hardened prostitute albeit the dancers never slept with anyone unless they were formally requested. Beth? Well, she’d been requested a few times. Or, should I say Zelda? Zelda had been. A quick confundus charm and they thought they’d had the ride of their life. She was quite sure sex on the job was prohibited. That said, given that was what was assumed to be her favourite pastime, it wouldn’t have been questioned if she had done. It was just too bad they were all greasy, married and disgusting. Not that she was feeling that way inclined. With all of the booze they’d had, anyway, a confundus charm was easier than unsatisfactory soppy seconds.
This was her little pleasure. As a rule she tended to take refuge in Eli’s, though tonight it had closed early, and sit and drink until the sun came up and they had to throw her out. Then she’d sleep the day away, get up in the afternoon, fill out some paperwork and go back to what was beginning to feel like her real job. They were no closer to arresting anyone, Holden had been moved onto another case and she had been left to do what she was sure the Ministry thought she liked to do best. There had been no chatter about making her an Auror again. There had been nothing pertinent about anything in regards to her. In fact, she was half certain that if she’d died they wouldn’t have noticed, just been irate the paperwork was missing. No, she found more comradery amongst the dancers. In fact, she preferred being Zelda. At least, for the right or wrong reasons, Zelda was valued. But the boozy hours after allowed for her to come down, shake it off, be some strange mesh of the two women before finally sliding back into Beth, acknowledging the twinging pain in her shoulder, and all of the disappointment that went along with it. Until then, however, there was still a while to go.
In good company too, it seemed. At the bartender – no, sorry owner’s words, a slow smile drifted its way across Beth’s face, scarlet lips tugging up around slightly pointed, white teeth. A laugh broke through, a long, lingering sound that slid through the air languishingly – almost like honey. Then she whisked it away and readjusted her body, straightening her spine as he leaned over to her.
“Owner then,” she amended, tipping her head to the side half-mockingly. “Just the man to afford the whole bottle.”
A little part of Beth wanted to mock that she had suffered a similar thing but she instead rose an eyebrow, a smirk resuming its gradual pace across her mouth as her eyes glinted in the strange lighting of the pub, a mix of humour, mutual sarcasm and a thin empathy with the feeling. She watched, stretching an arm out across the bar, her fingers smoothing across the polished wood in an almost fond gesture, as he retrieved a bottle and as a few bones popped in her arm and elbow, the glass was turned down the length of the bar to her. Her hand shot out, her long fingers curling around the glass, and she lifted it up, dropping her other arm back to her side.
“What a dreadful thing to have to do,” Beth mocked, cheekily adding, “No, you can’t have any. It’s mine!”
She lifted the glass she had away, in case he had the inclination to try and take it from her and a daring grin settled on her features. She moved the glass back onto the bar with a wink and lifted one leg over the other, wiggling a little at the strange feeling of the fishnet tights rubbing together. She would always despair of that and wondered why she’d let them linger. But then, in her eagerness to leave, she’d not really worried after the tights. She had no need to do so now, either. The dying embers of a crowd lived on in the pub, some electing to stumble out the door, others up the stairs. The poker table had been largely abandoned barring the man who usually slept there, his face in his cap, and barring those lingering on, it was really just herself and the owner.
“I’ll buy the next one,” she told him offhandedly, bringing the glass to her lips. The wine was tart, as was all white wine, with the familiar zing that came from little disparity between the grapes each producer used. Yet this one was smooth and pleasant and not at all like the rough and ready reds that she had become accustomed to. It smoothed its way over her tongue, across her palette and was oddly soothing to her as the sweetness gave way to a dry maturity that gave a sudden depth to the drink that she hadn’t been expecting.
“So, Mr Owner knows his wines,” Beth commented, setting the glass down once more with a clink against the countertop. “It’s a good choice.” She nodded, turning the glass around by the base with the tips of her fingers.
“Do tell then,” she added, sitting up again, lifting her leg down to brace her foot on one of the rungs on the stool beside her. “What is so blisteringly unpleasant about working in here? Or, poor baby, are the cocktails not living up to the dreams?”
She could sympathise with that. Her life lacked all of the cocktails, anything and everything to make the lack of dreams seem okay. The wine would do, though. It would go a ways to dull it all. It had to. If it didn’t, she’d have to go looking for more – and there was always more.