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Good examples. Neville was giving him good, logical examples, interesting suggestions.......then why on earth was he so non-inclined towards it all?

Because I've discovered my passion already. All I need to do is find a place for it. And its not in the Muggle world.

"For once Uncle Nev just......just listen me out, with an open mind." One that isn't jammed by prejudice. "If someone told you to..to give up on Herbology, because it was harmful for some reason, would you be so eager to do it? Even if the reasons were perfectly logical?" Albus resisted the urge to grit his teeth again, Merlin this was so frustrating. He should never even have involved him in this in the first place. He turned his eyes towards his erstwhile Professor, "Do you believe me when I tell you that I don't like torture? Or hurting, or killing people? Its just....its the mechanics behind the magic that fascinates me. The Arithmantical equations, the incantations, the power.....inventing Dark magic is no joke, its a ridiculously complicated concept and I'm...I'm.." Good at it. "I will not use it..just let me study it in peace.."

Albus knew he was overreacting, he knew Neville was only trying to help him, but the suggestion of coming over seemed to him ridiculously like a chastising parent trying to bring over an erring child to the 'right path'. His chest twisted at being treated like a child-Merlin, I am acting like one. And that realization made him stop short, and think. Hadn't he always been the mature Potter? And he hadn't met Alice in so long anyway......."Fine I'll.....I'll come over to the Cauldron sometime."

Albus knew he was overreacting, he knew Neville was only trying to help him, but the suggestion of coming over seemed to him ridiculously like a chastising parent trying to bring over an erring child to the 'right path'. His chest twisted at being treated like a child-Merlin, I am acting like one. And that realization made him stop short, and think. Hadn't he always been the mature Potter? And he hadn't met Alice in so long anyway......."Fine I'll.....I'll come over to the Cauldron sometime."

Neville sighed. Merlin was this boy stubborn. He couldn’t force him to do anything but for Merlin’s sake he hoped the boy wouldn’t get himself killed or at the least lose himself in the Dark Arts. If there was a way he could stop Albus he would do it. He knew that Albus didn’t know as much about the Dark Arts as he thinks he does. That much was for certain.

“You just don’t understand. When you find yourself on the urge of killing someone for no reason at all find me. Then you’ll get it. Hopefully, you don’t go insane before then,” said Neville. Albus wasn’t reacting to him that way so he decide just to cut off all emotions. “When you get tired of living in the same cycle stop by the Leaky Cauldron. You think you’re the only child of a ‘hero’ to try Dark Arts think again. I know for a fact Frank has and I believe Jessica Macmillan is. But that girl does a lot of things so she might just be doing spice or something,” said Neville. He turned to leave at that. He knew there would be a time when Albus would come to him. Until then he was going to go back to his daily life.

This was the chance. This was the chance to rebuild burned bridges with his relatives, and hopefully his family after that, and Albus would be an absolute idiot to let it go.

"Uncle Nev...wait." Neville was turning away, and Albus needed to talk, needed to let it all out before he lost the spark of courage that he had gained. "I....I'm...."

C'mon. You can do it.

Albus sucked in a deep breath, trapped in his chest, "I was....thinking. About the state the country.....the Ministry's been in. Loads of people have something to say about it...against it. And since I've been tired of standing in the background for so long, I thought this was the chance to..." Albus tightened his jaw. If this was to work, he had to man up. Respect had to earned, not demanded or pled for. He continued in a calm, if tightly controlled voice, "I was thinking of organizing a meeting..of sorts. For people who think like I do. And I would really appreciate it if you could come."