Amelia stood perfectly still as she concluded her speech, and after a brief pause, the audience began to clap. She could see a few people in the atrium crying, some were leaning toward their friends and family members for a quick embrace or a few shared words. Although she had been the one giving the speech, Amelia felt worlds away from them. Her eyes were dry, and she was dulling her own emotions by trying to think about anything else.
Near the left side of the atrium, Amelia could see her parents clapping along with the others. Her mother was giving her a “I-didn’t-know-you-had-it-in-you” look, approving but surprised, but her father was beaming. He was clapping much more enthusiastically than Antoinette, who was politely tapping her hands against one another, but Frederick was looking at her as though he had been waiting for this moment for years. It made a corner of Amelia’s mouth twitch up into the slightest of smiles to see her father’s reaction.
Before Amelia could escape the podium and return to her seat, Doyle stood out from the crowd and laughed, looking up at her. Amelia was taken aback by this reaction, and looked down at him with trepidation, but as usual, he ignored her signs of distress and played off his reaction before stepping beside her at the podium. Amelia nodded minutely when the headmaster asked her about her parents’ reaction, wishing with every fiber of her being that he hadn’t said that.
The headmaster then launched into his own speech, though he did take a small aside to mention the potions professorial position, winking knowingly at Amelia, as though he expected her to feel something specific relating to that information. Amelia was careful to keep her face blank as the professor made a spectacle of her, especially since her parents were watching. Antoinette had probably already told most of the room about the position Amelia had been offered with the London Symphony Orchestra, and if the headmaster had other ideas, it wasn’t anything Amelia could spare any thought for. She had enough on her plate without him running interference in her life.
Amelia bore up through the rest of the headmaster’s speech, only half-listening as the panic of standing in front of so many people started to creep out of its box. She was standing stiffly as Doyle patted her on the back at the end of his speech. She inclined her head in a show of respect as he dismissed himself from the podium. Although Amelia made an attempt to follow him, the next speaker was on the stage before she could escape, and she ended up being ushered just slightly behind the Deputy Headmaster as he began his speech.
Breathe… Breathe… it’ll be over in a minute…
Amelia’s mind, already overwhelmed by the charged and public nature of her situation, was thrown into overdrive when she began contemplating not only what Elldir was saying, but also that he was saying anything at all. Over the past few weeks, she had been hearing from every direction that the man had been killed, that Jaquellene Dyllan had had something to do with it. Amelia was never one to believe anything without concrete proof, and from what she had heard there was very little of that to go on, so her opinion of her fellow Gryffindor graduate hadn’t changed. It still hovered somewhere between annoyance and begrudging respect.
Elldir’s speech was long and, Amelia thought, somewhat self-indulgent. Thoar spent a great deal of the speech talking about himself, and although he used it to inject some humor into his speech (Amelia hadn’t even tried that; she was not funny), Amelia still found it a bit self-centered. Still, when the speech was over, and all the clichés doled out, Amelia clapped along with the rest of the room.
This time, Amelia didn’t hesitate at the end of the speech. She had already been caught on this stage twice now, and she wasn’t going to make that same mistake again. Instead, she more or less bolted for the edge of the stage and disappeared back to her table while everyone was concerned with reacting to Thoar’s speech. She sunk silently into her chair at the table where Peter was still sitting, inhabiting a chair that did not belong to him. She didn’t know what his reaction to the speech would have been, and she didn’t feel she could ask without sounding as though she were fishing for compliments. She was surprised to realize his was probably one of the only opinions in the audience she would actually have wanted to hear.
But instead, she merely gave him a half-hearted smile before turning her attention back to the front of the room, where Elldir was announcing that the next speaker would be… Jaquellene? Amelia hadn’t known there would be another student speaker, and judging from the Gryffindor’s face, neither did Jaquellene. She did, however, take the stage, and after a rocky start, her speech began to flow.
It was drastically different from Amelia’s planned, rehearsed, and perfected speech, but it was almost comical how much the two speeches foiled one another, almost the way Amelia and Jaquellene’s personalities did. Jack was basically saying whatever came to mind, but as usual, Amelia found herself oddly impressed with the girl’s charm in spite of her lack of formality. Jaquellene and achieved a speech equally poignant if not more so as her own speech had been, and she had done it all on the fly. It sort of made Amelia want to hate her, but Amelia was too busy surpressing her emotions to feel one that strong. Instead, she shook her head, as if to say, ‘I give up’, and as Jack descended from the stage, Amelia began to clap. She didn’t have the emotional capacities at the moment to allow herself to reflect fully on what Jaquellene’s speech meant to her, but Amelia knew she would think about it later.
For now, she would just do as Jack said, and survive.