After an hour of laying awake on the cold, carpeted floor, Calvin came to the conclusion that he had gotten enough sleep when he’d drifted off earlier that evening, and that he was not going to have any similar luck until his worried thoughts of Chase Moor had quieted. Despite the fact that Chase’s wounds seemed to be healing just as they should have, her whimpers and cries throughout the night were far too torturous for Calvin to fall to sleep to, and so, after lying stick-still with his eyes squeezed shut for what had seemed like an eternity to him, he’d decided that there was far too much to be done to help Chase for him to remain there, pretending to sleep until sunrise. So Calvin stood, releasing Chase’s hand for the first time since she’d lost consciousness, and made his way towards the kitchen sink with a clean rag in his hand.
Rather than skipping towards the kitchen in his usual manner, however, Calvin found that he was incapable of mustering any more energy than was necessary for him to drag himself towards the facet, run the water, lather the cloth in soap, and return to Chase’s side. Calvin was in no way an experienced healer; he’d only spent a few years at the hospital before he’d quit his job because of the tragic death of one of his youngest patients. He had not yet mastered the art of healing, and therefore, the act of bringing Chase Moor ‘back to life’ had required so much of Calvin’s own life-force that it was a wonder he was even capable of standing up straight… and Calvin’s sudden case of insomnia only added on to the physical exhaustion that had overwhelmed him. His thoughts were not of himself, however; as Calvin took the soapy washcloth in both of his hands and gave it a twist, forcing the warm water that it’d absorbed to drip onto Chase’s blood-stained skin, he winced to himself, hoping that the water would not wake Chase from her slumber. Cautious not to disturb her, Calvin ran the washcloth over her fair shoulders, which he’d rid completely of all injuries that’d once been there, and began to wash that horrible, crimson color from her skin.
Calvin moved to Chase’s face, but it was then when his fingers began to tremble once more; her beautiful face was scared in so many placed, and Calvin was having a great deal of trouble healing them. Her eye was still incredibly swollen, and it was this injury that worried him most when it came to the facial injuries that she’d received; Calvin had only ever worked with eyes once before, and that patient hadn’t fully recovered his sight in that eye… Calvin ran the cloth over Chase’s eyelid as gently as possible, trialing the index finger of his free hand along behind the cloth so to heal her at the same time – but he had to stop after a few minutes of doing this, for his own breathing had become labored due to all of the pressure that he was putting his body under.
He paused for a moment, counting the beats of his heart so to make certain that he hadn’t gone too far… He wanted more than anything to continue on until Chase awoke, healing her every injury, but he found that his heart was growing far too weak, and knew that Chase would not be able to live with herself if Calvin accidently hurt himself while healing her. Feeling slightly frustrated with himself, Calvin stood, and made his way towards the restroom. He was in desperate need of a shower and a change of clothes; the strong smell of Chase’s blood had soaked into the skin of Calvin’s arms, and it was beginning to make him feel ill.
Upon entering the restroom, Calvin pulled the door shut behind him – but made sure to connect the door with its frame as quietly as possible so not to wake Chase – and made his way to sink. A small mirror hung above the sink, one that reflected Calvin’s image for him to see and be slightly frightened by; dry tears clung to the skin of his freckled cheaks, and Chase’s blood had been smeared across his face when Chase had attempted to whip said tears away. His smile was broken in a way that Calvin could never remember it being before, and within his eyes was a form of exhaustion that looked fatal. Calvin turned the faucet on and filled his stained palms with water; he did not want Chase to worry about him, and so, he felt it necessary to rid himself of anything that might suggest that he’d overworked himself. Chase was the one who had nearly died, and therefore, concern for anyone other than Chase at that moment would be concern wasted. Calvin brought his palms to his face, splashing water across his skin.
He’d made a grab for the soap when he’d heard a distant call from the living room, which sent his thoughts into hyper drive; Chase was awake, and he was not there for her, as he’d promised he would be.
With water dripping from his face, Calvin pulled the bathroom door open hastily, and made a mad dash for the sofa. He had to explain; he simply had to explain to Chase that he’d only left her side for a second…
Just for a second. He’d left Chase’s side for a second – a second which could have gone horribly, horribly wrong! Something could have happened to her during that second when he’d left her for something as unimportant as cleaning himself off, and suddenly, Calvin felt as though he’d made the worst mistake imaginable. Using up the last of his energy, Calvin made his way around the couch, and quickly knelt before Chase, “I’m here, Chase! I am so sorry; I didn’t mean to…” he began, gasping for breath. “I’m so sorry.”
How many times had Calvin apologized to Chase that evening?