Thaor turned towards Jess, anger quickly building inside. Being a death eater does not mean I don't feel things, or have emotions Jess. There hasn't been a day that has gone by that I haven't regretted walking away from the Order, walking away from you, Robert, Michael. Thaor said, as tears built up in his eyes.
There is going to be a war Jess, we both know it. I've already lost everything that meant the most to me. Walker passed away a month ago, leaving me the only living Elldir on the planet. What have I done with my life Jess? I'm a celebrated wand maker, who cares. Member of the wizengamot, who cares? Deputy Headmaster and Care of Magical Creatures Professor, who cares? I'm rich, who cares? I've been chasing the wrong things Jess, money, and power. Neither of which, gives hapiness. Just stress, and depression. I'm not asking you to help me, to let me in the order, or anything like that. I'm only asking that you be there when I break this vow, to help the Order, the Ministry, the people you care about, and that I care about. Thaor said, wiping away the single tear off his cheek.
I have no doubt, there will be a battle at Hogwarts, there always is. It is there, that I will make my stand, and leave the Death Eaters, for good. I'm not saying you have to let me in the Order, but know, I'll always be ready to defend the people I care about. Thaor said as he clutched the portkey leading him to Khaat in his hand. With a wisp, he was gone.