new beginnings and new love.

Cassidy looked at him her hands cuping his face " I don't know yet , I missed last month I ht with all the stress in my job it was just that , I need to see a healer first , but if I am what about my job I'd have to tell them they might let me work in sparks till its born then what?" she asked loking into his eyes " you said you didn't want me to be till after we were married , now i ... I find myself as if I am" she lent forward hold ing him as if he was about to run away " don't leave me " she said softly her face buried in his shoulder.

tears formed in his eyes. not tears of sadness but tears of happiness. he hugged her tight, "shhh," he whispered smith in his hand over her hair. "its going to be okay," he said softly. "I'm sure they will understand. its a natural thing." he kissed her on the head. "i don't care if its now or later," he whispered. "I'm not leaving you. your always going to be mine," he gently rocked her back and fourth trying to clam her down. "I'm not going anywhere baby," he whispered. he had learned his lesson about ruining. it only made more problems. he wasn't going to run out on her like he did Delilah. he was in it for the long run.

Cassidy moved to look at him and kissed him deeply as she sniffed back her tears she sat back and placed his hand on her tummy " Brian my boss noticed i was moody and stuff and i was thinking back it was then i realised " she said softly and sighed to her self " ow god ..bug tummys and cravings and water retenshion " she said but with a smile " our child " she said softly leaning against him. " I hope I am i so want to be now " she finished with a deep breath in " I haven't eaten yet " she said f eling her tummy rumble " mumm, panckaes and gurkins " she said and looked at him " ow boy " she looked suprised " thats not a good combernation." she chuckled

Clayton Kissed her back and smiled. "come on lets go get you food," he said quietly picking her up and walking towards the kitchen. "i'll make you what ever you want to eat." he set her down in a chair and set to work on cooking pancakes and gherkins. " put the food on tow plates and placed one in front of her and sat down next to her with his own plate. he hoped she was too but wouldn't let her know how scared he was. he didn't want her to think he wasn't ready to be a father. he just wasn't sure he'd be a good father.

Cassidy smiled at him " i think you'll be a good father clay " she said as they moved to the kitchen and he made her some food she ate the pancakes dipping the girkins in syrup as she ate those , finishing she smiled " that was wonderful " she said taking a sip of milk from a glass . She looked at him and saw the worry on his face " why the worry ?" she asked as she finished her last gurkin after dipping it in syrup she dipped it in the milk and loked at him " what?" she asked .

Clayton put his arm around cassidy's shoulder. "don't worry about it right now," he whispered kissing her on the head. he picked at the food not rally hungry. "your going to be a wonderful mother." he murmured kissing her neck. he moved her so she sat on his lap and held her close as he kissed her shoulder and neck. "i love you so much," he whispered "and your so sexy." he kissed his Cassy on the lips and held her close to him. he was sure she could feel what he did only in a different way. "your the most beautiful girl in the world." he murmured cradling her in his arms.

Cassidy kissed him back as he pulled her closer to him " and your a wonderful lover " she said letting her shirt fall open slightly to him as she held him back " I 'll know more tomorrow , im still trying to get my head around the possibility I might be right now " as he puled her cloeer she loked down at him and bit her lip " your so noughty mr stevens " she said and smiled as she lent down and kissed him deeply as she moved to become more comforatble on him loveing how he felt her heart beating fast in her chest " I love you clay your not a freaid to do things even in the kitchen" she saoid and grined at him.

"your so beautiful," Clayton told her again his hand slid inside of her shirt so that it rested on her bare skin. "and who is going to see us here? you and me? the ranch hands and the Employees are out in the field working already. i'll join them tomorrow or maybe the next day. "if you'd like we could go somewhere else. even to the flat in hogsmeade kissed her his hand gently moving up and down her back. "i'll never stop loving you honey," he whispered quietly.

Cassidy sighed leaning against him as she kissed him " yes I have a few days off to sort things with my fathers estate it was why I came back he was murdered " she said but smiled at him " he wasn't a very nice man " she said and gave a soft groan " ow flat defianly " she said grining at him as she lent to whisper in his ear " I nede you right now Clay ,I love you too" her heart beat fast in her chest her hands cressed the back of his head as she sat on him " But Clay ...be gentel , I don't want to hurt our child if I am ok?" she asked him.

"Gentle," Clayton whispered kissing her," i can do that," he stood up with her in his arms and appreciated to the Flat in hogsmeade. she had wanted to come here so he brought her here. he carried her to the bed room and laid her down on the bed. careful undressing her. "i need you now to," he whispered kissing her stumic as he took the shirt off of her. he kissed from her bellybutton up to her lips in a straight line.
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as he lay next to cassidy Clayton watched his sleeping angle. he brushed the hair out of her face as he watched her sleep.