Gulping, Nikki gave Sophia the packet of cigarettes from her pocket. It was proof enough as almost nobody knew her middle name..just a couple of people here and there. Nikki touched Sophia's skin and realized she had made a terrible, horrible mistake. It was all real. "I believe you! Please, stop, I believe you!" Nikki fell to her knees and actually began to sob out loud. Tears ran down her face constantly and she couldn't stop.
"I thought if I smoked these, I'd...I'd feel better but most times I'd feel guilty afterwards," Nikki answered her first question, sobbingly. "And knowing it would kill me, made no difference 'cause I'd thought I'd see you on the other side," Nikki sniffled. Nikki choked and sobbed a bit more. "I thought that cause you were gone, and because you may come back, I wanted to die..but slowly, in case you came back, which you did!" Nikki continued. Nikki looked at Sophia, with sadness and puffy swollen red eyes and a wet face. She couldn't stop crying. "I won't, you're here, I won't do it anymore," Nikki cried. Nikki was now just sitting on the ground, sobbing.