Felix held onto her harder as she kissed him. He could feel the hopelessness of the situation with her making him feel drained. It was hopeless, they would get caught.. even if he did manage to kill Khaat Lupin... what then? He'd be charged for murder, he'd never get out of Azkaban.. he'd never see Naomi again. If only he had been born elsewhere, if only he had been born as someone else's child.. not abused, broken and beaten until his mother left him to roam the streets, while she went and got rich in America. Felix pulled Naomi closer to him again, pushing himself against her. It was hopeless, it really was, and somehow he had to become what he had decided he would become. He had to now.. now that he had Khaat, now that he was a torturer, and the wizarding world hated him.. the world hated him, and would love to see him locked away..
Well let them hate him... what did he care? They were a bunch of muggle lovers anyway... What did their opinions matter to him? They wanted him evil? Then fine, so be it! He would be evil, just for them, and he would show them how evil he could be. He wouldn't be forgotten, he would be Felix Barker, kidnapper, torturer, and maybe even killer. He had seduced a young girl, and managed to convince her to help him in his escapade of tyranny. He would rule, and they would never catch him, and if they did? They didn't have the balls to kill him. He would be brought in, to 'endure' another sentence of Azkaban, it couldn't get worse.. and he didn't care anymore. Something inside him hardened and he started to kiss Naomi with more feeling, moving so that she was under him instead of over him, and he poured his new resolutions into her with the kiss.