Chase sat in the library by herself in the farthest back corner that she could get. She sat with a fiction book on the table, but she wasn't reading it. In fact, she was just staring at a page in the book. Her eyes were glued to one word, and she hadn't moved from that one word, for almost five minutes now. Not that she knew what the word was, but she was just staring at it, thinking hard. Elijah... she loved him so much, but there was no way she could keep him. He wasn't the type to be held down, she had given him the chance to leave, he had left, he had said he loved her, then he had flirted with another girl.
Was it selfish.. to want to have someone who loved her before she got pregnant? To want someone to like her not because she WAS pregnant,but because she was her. Chase had undergone some serious changes to her appearance in the last few days. Not because of her pregnancy, in fact she looked just as skinny as ever (Thanks to the robes that Jen had bought her) but as she lay there, she played with a strand of hair, a strand of hair, that only came to her chin. It was roughly chopped, and ragged, and only to her chin. Chase let her finger twist that strand around for a moment before letting it go again.
She had been having nightmares, horrible nightmares. Ones that showed Elijah being tortured and killed, one that showed her baby coming out and looking like a demon, little claws and red glowing eyes. They were always different, but they always woke up with Chase screaming, her entire body in pain as her scars seared with long past spells. Chase rested her head on her arms and gave up trying to look like she was reading. She was to tired, and to sick of it all to even try anymore.