The silvery hawk Amelia had conjured from her wand had served its purpose in bringing the dark-haired girl safely to the floor of the compartment, and just in time too. The energy she was expending on controlling and directing the patronus had all but dried up, and although Amelia made one last futile attempt to maintain it, the bird of prey flickered and disappeared, leaving only wispy traces of silver which were quickly swallowed by the darkness.
Physically exhausted and mentally beaten from the attack of her outpoured emotions, Amelia once again found herself sinking closer to the ground. She fought the onslaught of exhaustion as the dark haired girl moved toward her, but she could feel her eyelids starting to droop even as the girl’s whispered words reached her ears.
Amelia knew she was being asked a question to which she knew the answer, but she could not make her muscles of her jaw form the words. Her tongue seemed to be immobile in her mouth, laying there uselessly, much like the rest of her. It was a terrible feeling, being able to think clearly but not being able to do anything about those thoughts; it felt eerily like being trapped. Amelia could feel panic starting to seep back in at the realization that she could not express her thoughts in words, and after a few moments of trying, merely allowed herself to sink back to the floor with her arms bent beneath her head, her eyes hidden toward the floor.
Once there, Amelia’s mind seemed to take direction from her body and slipped into a sort of slump, occasionally taking in what was going on around her, but mostly just disconnecting from reality to protect itself. She caught bits and pieces of conversation, thought she felt the air around her move more quickly, and then heard a noise that brought her quickly back to herself. The sound was like the worst kind of tearing she had ever heard combined with the sound of breaking bones, and a moment later she felt bits of wetness hit her limp form, a particularly goopy bit landing on her cheek.
It almost didn’t process, what had just happened. In fact, Amelia’s mind was hardly in a state to process much of anything in its current condition. Instead, it just refused to do much of anything until, after a time unbeknownst to Amelia, she felt a kind of weight lift from her chest. She was still very much debilitated, but suddenly the room was not as cold and her outlook not quite as dismal. Forcing her eyes open, Amelia was able to see that the foggy darkness that had encompassed the dining car no longer persisted. She could also see several pairs of feet that had not been there before, though to whom they were attached she did not know until her thinking became clear enough to process the voices above her.
Amelia could hear Angelique’s voice first, followed by another, more familiar male voice that made her cringe internally at the thought of him seeing her like this. It was undoubtedly Elijah Krum that was speaking now, followed by the voice of a girl Amelia didn’t recognize. They were discussing the logistics of the situation, a situation Amelia had been too weak to witness and was now too weak to handle even in the aftermath. How pathetic.
Reaching a hand up to her face, Amelia wiped the bit of goop off her face with two fingers, bringing her hand away from her face slightly so that she might see what it was that she had removed. At first she had been pinching the bit of sludge between her fingers, but as her eyes examined just what she was holding, she immediately dropped it to the floor, visibly shaken by the fact that she was absolutely covered in what appeared to be shredded human being.
As Amelia cringed away from the torn flesh, she felt a hand on her shoulder and receded even further away inside herself. She could hear Elijah’s voice, his nick name for her in a soothing tone that suggested he was not nearly as lost as she was in the situation. Although she should have been calmed by this fact – that he could be her anchor in this situation – instead she felt even more embarrassed by her actions and even more by her inaction. He was sorting out the situation logically, the way she might have done in any other situation, but was incapable of doing in her current state.
Why does he always have to see me like this? Amelia thought angrily, thinking back to the battle in the teashop that had ended with her crying in Elijah’s arms. These two instances were the only she could think of in recent memory that were truly mortifying for her, and Elijah had managed to witness them both.
As Elijah placed a blanket around her shoulders, she was tempted to throw it off, but even in her state of disarray she could see the logic in what he was saying. She couldn’t lay here all night in the puddle of what had once been a human being. Not even that was bothering her significantly at this point. Of course, it was a shame that someone had died and was now covered her with what was left of their body, but her reaction to whatever that black smoke had been had been so much poorer than that of her classmates that this fact was bothering her much more. She prided herself on being strong, and in this case, she was the weakest of the bunch.
Sick of wallowing in self-pity, Amelia took a deep breath and wiped the rest of the bodily fluids from her face with the back of her forearm as she returned to a sitting position. She waited until Elijah had released his touch on her shoulder – for that boy’s touch had always made her feel weak, but in a completely different way than she did now – to try to stand, and managed to successfully find her feet beneath her. Although she still felt hesitant to move, she knew it was a necessity that could not be avoided, and thus put one foot in front of each other carefully as she moved from the dreadful scene in the dining car. She saw Elijah disappear ahead of her into the driver’s compartment, but she did not feel that she would be of any real use there. Instead, she moved into a compartment that had been blown apart and was now empty, sitting down on what remained of a seat and wrapping the blanket tighter around herself, focusing now on regaining her sensibilities and strength as the train started once again to move forward.