"I hope so," Khaat said softly. "I do love him, you know. And I want this baby far more than he knows. But I want him to feel free to leave me if he wants to. I don't want this being something that chains him to me. I keep telling myself he's just feeling insecure because of how bad things were here last night. I know he thought I was going to die. I might have if he hadn't rescued me and called my parents. But he has no idea how important he is to me. Or maybe he does, and he's not ready for it.
Khaat got up slowly, hanging onto the bedpost, and went over to the window and sat down. Things were spinning still, and it aggravated her. She looked out and saw that he had been woodworking in the yard. And, oddly enough, all he'd made were toys for a little girl, and had a crib partly assembled. "Mis. Look," She called softly, pointing out the window. "He's made some toys, a rocking horse, and a Hogwarts castle as a doll house, and he's making a crib. Looks like he's hoping for a girl. Maybe you're right,Mis. Maybe he won't leave me after all. Maybe he'll stay. Maybe he'll decide he wants to stay. Mis, I don't want him to stay because he feel he has to. I want him to stay because he wants to. If he can't find that in himself, then I need to let him know he can go. I'm a strong woman. I've been taking care of kids a long time. I can do this by myself. He could just go away and forget about us if he wanted."