Amelia was once again surprised when the young redhead caught her reference to Alice in Wonderland, a book many her age would not have recognized. Most of the muggle world believed it to have been written by one of their own, but the wizarding world knew much better: a defunct member of the Wizengamot as a way to express his views of society near the time of his death.
When the girl went on to talk about the reason she smiled, Amelia found herself more affected by the words than she would have thought possible. It left her quiet after the girl had stopped speaking, Elvaleryn still staring up at her with a happy smile plastered on her face although Amelia had given no clear indication that she had even processed what the girl said. Instead, Amelia had reverted into her own personal world, the world which existed only inside her head and was a place she escaped to when the outside world became too overwhelming.
This little girl smiled for the benefit of others. She smiled not because she was happy, but because she wanted to make others happy. The only timeAmelia plastered a smile on her face for someone else was when her mother glared at her from across the dinner table until Amelia put on a happy face for the company her parents had invited.
Amelia rarely smiled because she was too afraid that it would show weakness or let other people in. Instead, she stayed quiet and kept her face straight. Only in very rare circumstances did she find herself genuinely smiling, and even then it was never for the benefit of others. There was too much in her past that told her what a smile was worth to give them out too freely, the way Elvaleryn did. The way most people did.
Several minutes of self-reflection passed before Amelia realized she had left the girl staring up at her, but by the time she snapped back to reality she was too shaken to feign interest in continuing the impromptu lesson. Amelia blinked a few times to make sure she was really back in the present, shaking her head in a failed attempt to clear it.
“I need to go now,” Amelia said abruptly, taking out her wand and motioning toward the stacks of sheet music, which immediately compiled themselves back into the compact ball, which bounced into her violin case. She took the bow hastily back from Elvaleryn, who Amelia knew would probably be bewildered by Amelia’s sudden change, but she was too wrapped up in her memories to attempt any sort of normalcy. Placing it in the case and snapping the lid closed, Amelia moved toward the door, turning only as she reached it to look back at the little girl who had entered unexpectedly, brought out a patience in Amelia she didn’t know she possessed, and then conjured memories Amelia would have cared to have left buried.
“It was nice to meet you Elvaleryn,” Amelia said quietly, all other words failing her. She nodded one last time in the girl’s direction and then turned and left the room, making her way quickly back to Ravenclaw tower where she could be alone, with only her thoughts and memories for company.