Michael was setting the finished egg casserole and the hashbrown casserole in the dining room, and the cinnamon rolls were already there, floating in the air on large platters, waiting for Michael to put them on the sideboard.
"Breakfast is on," Michael called to whoever was within hearing distance. "Rowan, make sure you try one of our 'little' cinnamon rolls." He was deliberately teasing about the size of the gigantic breakfast pastries.
"Michael," Robert said, as Michael brought the oven mitts back to the kitchen, "take a look at that picture of Rowan and his mother. You're going to want to see it." Michael went over to the counter and picked up the picture. It was like all the wind had gone out of his sails. For a moment, he could have sworn all the oxygen left the room.
"Alette," the name came out before he even realized it. As toxic as their relationship had become in Alette's later years before she had passed, Michael had not been able to abandon her. She had set him up to take the blame for a burglary that she had bungled, figuring that Michael would just free himself somehow, and he had done time in a Parisian jail for a crime he had not committed--until Robert had managed to prove that Michael was innocent. And even then, Michael could not abandon her. He had been with her as her illness had slowly taken her, and he had been there still as the breath left her for the very last time.
"I remember that dress," Michael said. "It was white with cornflower blue flowers. I bought it for her on a trip we took to Milan." It added up so fast in his head, it made him physically dizzy. Where had she hidden this boy all these years? Where was he when he had visited her? Why? Why had he never told her that he had a son? Why had she robbed him yet again of knowing that he was not so bloody alone in this world, that he actually had a son? It was just like Alette, romancing him with one hand and stabbing him somehow with the other. It was how she had lived her whole bloody life.
It was overwhelming. The shock and surprise, the wanting to put it all back in Pandora's box and shut it up tight again so he could unsee it. And then there was the rage--blind rage that she had kept it from him that he had a son. Could it be that he belonged to someone else? Michael didn't see how. He and Alette had rarely left each other during those years. He knew with very little doubt--he always had just a little doubt where Alette was concerned--that he was the only one who was making love to her in those years. Rowan was his. Robert could find out for certain, but Michael already knew. The words caught in his throat. He took a deep breath to steady himself.
Robert laid a steadying hand on Michael's shoulder for a moment and then spoke quietly.
"Ask your questions," Robert told Michael. Michael nodded. He turned and looked at Rowan.
"Your mother's name was Alette? If so, I knew her well, ,and we spent a great deal of time together. We were very close, but I don't know how it is that I never knew you," Michael told Rowan.