"They said this would help."

This feels weird.

I don't think I've ever had a journal before, well.. maybe I have, but not for something like this. I've been told that keeping a journal will help me remember things from before, the things that I've forgotten. I'm not really sure I trust that logic, but I've got nothing better to try to regain my memories at the moment.

I've been able to remember a few things since returning to London, but very few of them have been positive things. I'm pretty sure the only positive so far has been Adrienne, though I still don't remember her all too well. And our encounters have been anything but pleasant for the most part. I think she's the only positive because there's something about her that makes me feel.. comfortable, at home, by just thinking about her.

Is this how I felt about her before I had that accident?

Merlin, I hope so.

Anyway, while I could go on for hours about her, this journal isn't supposed to be only about Adrienne. But I'd rather not talk about the negative things I've remembered/experienced since returning. Mostly because they involve the family who didn't seem to approve of my marriage with Adrienne.

Yeah, I was married. It's a hard concept to wrap my head around because from what I've been able to learn about myself, i was never the type to really think about getting married. And much less to anyone who wasn't a Pureblood. I was a real pure blooded arse, apparently. But obviously, she was able to change that.

And y'know. Memory loss plays a part too.

But now I'm just rambling. I'll write again some time soon.

This one's going to be short because I have so much to do today. But so much has happened so I'll probably definitely elaborate later.

I was supposed to meet with Adrienne to tell her what I had found out about what my family had done. Apparently they'd been the reason why we "got divorced", except that I wasn't the one who signed the divorce papers. It was my brother, my twin brother, Oliver.

Because when your kid goes missing, you just put someone else in his place, right? Yeah. Glad my parents sure had their priorities straight. But anyway, I'll get into that afterwards.

But basically, I think I ruined her relationship.

Which is weird because I hadn't even really known much about it. But the Deputy Headmaster came into my office at Hogwarts too and things just kind of spiraled and.. yeah.

I feel bad. I should check on her.