The pressure to have something to show for her time away from home was unfounded. Alice knew that. Her parents knew it, too. They would have been horrified to learn that she thought she had to prove something to them. Still, she felt as though her decision to stay back in Britain had been a significant one. She felt as though she had to show them that there was some semblance of togetherness about her life. A stable job, a roof over her head… all of the things that relax parents and assuage their worries. Really though, and Alice knew it too, Paul and Marie were only looking to make sure that their daughter was happy. Barging on their children was something they did often. They were rarely impressed with the situation they found their eldest daughter in but their sons and their youngest baby girl were always, it seemed, blissfully happy and it softened their worried hearts to find her, so far from home, having found a new one, a place where she could melt into a chair, every cell of her body entirely, totally at ease.
Wine was poured and even though Alice still turned her nose up at the drink on principle, on truth she had come to find some sort of place for it in her drink palette. She had come to enjoy red wine much more, now that she was entering some sort of phase where she was becoming more French, if it was entirely possible. After a particularly tricky case at work, she would often make a detour to the delicatessen that she had grown rather fond of and dinner would be cheese and crackers with a side-order of wine and the lovely addition of Oliver, whom she could rant to until the morning threatened on the horizon about the intricacies of this and that which particularly rankled with her. It seemed an odd thing, to be sat with glasses populating their kitchen table while her father cooked dinner. He seemed happy enough, though, and so they could be left to talk.
Alice turned her head at Ollie’s words and smiled encouragingly at him, reaching out to lay her arm on the back of his chair. She lifted her hand up and lightly started to draw her fingers through the back of his hair, an idle gesture that was rhythmic and, in its repetitiveness, oddly reassuring. It wasn’t something she really became aware of until he looked at her again and she immediately grinned back at him, her fingers lacing briefly through his. She felt heat rise in her cheeks and she ducked her head a little, part of her wanting to say that she wasn’t that good at all, really. She had spent so much time on her little elephants, though, she couldn’t bear to let them down by saying as much. They were good and their story was important. It was now beyond her, beyond them, in a way. She cared, perhaps, a little too much about their adventures but that, she hoped, was what was going to make it good.
“They like it because we’re a dream team,” Alice countered, squeezing his hand back. “It’s just … the loveliest little book.”
“Remind me,” Marie turned to Ollie as she set down her wine glass, “to show you Alice’s drawings from when she was little. The next time you two come home, remind me, Ollie.”
Paul chuckled and his wife’s eyes flicked over to him, a smile playing at her lips, a knowing look filling her eyes. She knew exactly what he was thinking of and, to a certain extent, Alice did too. The second time Paul had gone to see her at the hospital, he’d brought with him a sketchbook and an assortment of pencils, crayons, and felt-tip pens. The drawings she’d produced while she was still in hospital were a mixture of hopeful and reflective pieces often interspersed with commentaries on the day-to-day running of the ward she was on.
“Do you remember the one of the doctor she didn’t like?” Paul asked, pouring a little of his wine into the pot, pushing the wooden spoon around as steam rose into the air.
Marie laughed, shaking her head. “Pointy teeth and claws, was it?” She eyed their daughter, amusement playing on her lips.
“Didn’t you have it framed, at one time?” Alice recalled, raising her eyebrows.
“I still have it in amongst the box of things I took home from the embassy,” Paul conceded, chuckling. “I’ll find it out for you. You’ll like it, Ollie.”
Alice smirked and hoped that her drawing ability had shown some sort of progress from when she was eight. She remembered that doctor well enough. He was hardly the pleasantest of creatures. She’d been happier to get away from him, when Paul had come to pick her up, than to actually leave the hospital. She’d not been very good with brusque manners since. Anyone remotely acerbic, even Ariel at times regardless of how used to him she was, she immediately took exception to.
Turning her head again and returning her gaze to her Hufflepuff, Alice’s brows shot up as he spoke. Surprise lanced through her and she felt a modicum of panic, too, at his words. She brought her hand round from his neck and cupped his cheek, her mouth opening and closing as she tried to formulate a response. She was faintly aware of her father’s wine glass hitting the counter top a little too roughly.
“I’m not letting you do this on your own,” Alice murmured. “If you let me, I’ll be with you every step of the way.”
“Does it have to be you?” Marie burst, her face screwed up with worry. “Is there no one else? It’s not … it’s not safe, even if you try and do it in the safest way possible! And this … this council is it … are there … are there going to be people you trust? Have you really thought about this, Oliver?”
“Hang on, Missus Panic,” Paul counselled, turning the hob down before coming over to sit beside his wife. “He’s a lad with a plan,” he murmured in her ear, pressing his lips to her temple. “Relax,” he urged in an undertone, drawing his hand across her back. “They’re not going to let anything happen to each other.”
“But there are Death Eaters, Paul!” She exclaimed, throwing his arm off from around her. “And besides them, terrible people who want to do terrible things to good people and I am damned if I am going to stand idly by and let them go out and put themselves in harm’s way!”
Paul blinked, pulling back to look at his wife for a moment. “Joining the Order are we?”
“If I bloody well have to!”
“Mum…” Alice cringed. “Is that really a good idea?”
“I love you,” Marie pointed at her daughter. “And I love you,” she declared, wagging her finger at Ollie. “I can’t bear the thought of you two not being safe. People will find out. You’ll be in harm’s way. You can’t … there are …” Marie took a breath, trying to steady herself. Alice reached out and covered her mother’s hand with her own.
“Safest way possible. Secretive. Planned out.” Alice repeated gently, rubbing circles into the skin on the inside of her mother’s wrist. “There is a plan. It’ll be alright. Trust him.”
“I do,” Marie protested, her eyes leaping to Oliver. “I do trust you. I’m just scared for you.”