"Not all eagles can be trained, but those who take to life with a master display intense loyalty. Although they are not tethered, they always return after killing their prey." - Stephen Kinzer
An Englishman’s home was his castle, and although one Keiran Hayes was technically Irish, it didn’t matter. The man had been away from his home for far too long. He didn’t need anyone to tell him that, although Henry had been more than happy to do so. Repeatedly. In fact, the man declared, he had been more AWOL than Declan after a terrible breakup. Keiran wasn’t sure what that really meant as far as he was concerned, but he hardly cared at that point. He was heading home. Finally.
In November, he had planned to catch Robin’s trail in Italy and find out the truth and come home. But by December, he had gotten close so many times that he knew he had no choice but to continue. He would never forgive himself if he nearly discovered the truth and then walked away, dooming Robin Ivanov to his death. He had gotten too close too many times, and he would be damned if he gave up. Still, though, he was stuck wondering about his family. He had been away too long. What would Millie think?
He made his way to Belarus, braving the cold and keeping himself sorted with warming spells or attempted tracking spells. The people he met weren’t exceptionally helpful, but that wasn’t their fault. Robin was like a needle in a very, very cold and entirely colorless haystack.
It wasn’t lost on him, by any means, that he was failing his kids yet again. The only saving grace, perhaps, was that Peter had come back into their mother’s life, and that Millie had people like Baldric and Theodore to keep an eye on her. Keiran couldn’t help but wonder about how Avery’s daughter was, how Mai was getting along, how the little ones in Bendric’s life were so far. As night fell, the anticipated fretting and regret would crash into him in waves, and whatever inn he found himself at was subjected to his frustration and anger. It was lucky he could fix things if they broke, as they often seemed to do so, somehow.
Depression and fear set in on Christmas Eve. He wasn’t there to help his mother through the anniversary of Aiden’s death, he wouldn’t get to see Darcie’s first Christmas, and he didn’t even dare wonder what Millie would do about it all. Instead, he sat at the window of his rented room, watching the blizzard that harassed the streets of Minsk. He missed the library at his mum’s house. He missed his friends, his children. He desperately missed his wife.
Two weeks later, Keiran was in Kiev when his wand was snapped in half, splinters flying. The only good thing about it, perhaps, was that several splinters lodged in his attacker’s wand hand. Talk about luck. Keiran was back on the trail, feeling like he was closer than ever before, despite the fact that he was nearly three months into his trip. Now, though, he had no warming spells, no apparition options, no tracking spells, no nothing. Everything became all the more difficult after that, unsurprisingly.
Traveling took longer, convincing people to help him was harder, and the homesickness was almost unbearable. Never again would he visit Eastern Europe, he vowed when February hit. He would only have a few more weeks to suffer through, even though he didn’t yet know that.
When, back home, Keiran was declared missing and ‘likely dead,’ Avery was finally able to react. She didn’t follow him, though nobody really seemed to expect her to be that brave. Not anymore. No, indeed, she stayed home.
Henry Tross, on the other hand, did not. Avery saw to that. His endeavors led him to Oliver Connolly and Jack Dyllan-Morrison. Seeking out the ex-professor took more time than he wanted it to, but he was fully uninterested in believing that the worst had actually happened. When they found Keiran in the-middle-of-nowhere, Ukraine, the man was incredibly scruffy, rough around the edges, and looked exhausted. In fact, Henry would later find out that, without any money available to him in the Muggle town, Keiran had taken up a job to make up for the things he lacked. Henry never asked what it was, though, considering the older man had been positively freezing, staring at something a short ways off.
When Henry followed Keiran’s gaze, he didn’t understand what was happening at first. A man was lying in the snow, pale to the point where he was almost blue. And neither that man nor Keiran looked like they were breathing. Oliver’s jaw dropped, and he reached towards Jack in anticipation of any potential panic she might feel. Henry moved forward, reaching out to rest a hand on Hayes’s shoulder.
Keiran jumped, turning over his shoulder and staring as though he hadn’t seen a friendly face in years rather than months. Even still, Henry conceded, he couldn’t have handled it either. He half expected Keiran to refuse to believe it was really him. Instead, Keiran’s stance crumpled and he pulled Henry into a sudden, desperate hug. When he pulled back, staring at Henry again in disbelief, the younger Ministry man spoke.
“Who was that?” He asked quietly, pointing towards the prone form to their right.
“That’s my best friend,” Keiran responded, his tone almost blank. Something about the hesitation in his voice made Henry wonder if he had spoken English at all during his time away. If not, Henry decided he would be rather impressed. Keiran’s gaze drifted towards the other two, confusion sinking in.
“Avery told me to try and find you,” Henry explained. “We came to get you, mate.”
Keiran’s face merely looked more anguished, and Henry couldn’t understand it. Deciding not to ask questions, Henry kept on. “You need to come home. They think you’re dead.”
The father considered pointing out that, most of the time, had felt that way. But that didn’t seem like it would help or change anything. But, home. Henry, Ollie and Jack had come to bring him back. Keiran had one stop he had to make before he went back to see Millie, though. Two, actually. Avery deserved to know.
Two days later, Keiran had his things packed and they returned to Ireland. He had given Jack an opportunity to return home so long as she promised to keep everything to herself for a few days. Now, he stood on Avery’s doorstep, flanked by his recsuers, shocked by the violent tears that fell from her eyes the moment she set eyes on him. Keiran was starting to get used to those urgent, fierce hugs, and couldn’t complain. He had read, once, that the human touch was the best thing when someone needed healing. He was starting to take that way more seriously, now. Regardless of the fact that she was obviously grateful to see him, Keiran wasn’t ready for the expectant and hopeful look that the blonde gave him. But he had physical proof now.
Avery didn’t sleep that night. And Keiran sent Oliver and Henry to the Ministry to take care of his second stop. Finally, though, Henry returned and brought one of Avery’s new Ministry friends to stay with her. Keiran couldn’t help but wonder how Mira was doing and what she thought about all of this. He told Avery very firmly that she needed to call her friend, then turned to Henry, eyebrows raised in question. The man nodded, holding something out to his friend. Keiran took it carefully, settling it into the pouch that Henry had given him to hold things. He would need a new wand, but that could wait.
During the boys’ absence, Keiran had cleaned up a bit – enough that he wouldn’t frighten people he came across by looking like a fuzzy monster. That definitely wouldn’t have helped him when it came to his kids, would it? He almost felt strange to be back to his normal, trimmed self. He ran a hand over his jaw, wondering absently if Millie would appreciate the effort if she knew. He felt better for looking like his old self, regardless, so he brushed it away and gathered his coat. It was oddly too much for the England winter, but that was okay. He didn’t intend on ever getting rid of it, even if it was just to remind him that, when he had been left with absolutely nothing in the world, he had survived. Now his house, their flat, his mother’s land and their money… it all seemed like so much more than it had before. Perhaps he was finally seeing what Millie had always known.
“Ready?” Henry asked, interrupting Keiran’s thoughts and reminding him that he had places to be.
Keiran nodded fervently, slightly disappointed that he had to ask Henry for help to get home. But at this point, he didn’t care. He was nearly back. Their feet landed outside of the wards of Bridget’s home, and Keiran abandoned Henry the moment he opened his eyes and saw the house in front of him. He didn’t run, exactly, but he hadn’t walked so fast since that night in St. Petersburg when he caught word of Robin being in that very town. He walked faster, probably, considering the lack of snow to slow his feet. Galway had never looked so beautiful or welcoming. But his town would be nothing compared to the sight of his family.
He didn’t bother knocking once he realized that the door was unlocked. Of course, he went straight for the handle just in case, and shoved the door open. At the end of the entry hall was his littlest baby, nearly nine months old. At first, he wondered why she was there by herself, bemused as to how she was wandering the house alone. She looked at him funny for a second, and then let out a squeal of delight.
“Da!”
His breath flew from him as he fell to the floor to scoop her up once she reached him. She was already walking and talking and he hated himself for missing it. But he had accomplished what he set out to so, in a weird way, he didn’t regret it. Darcie’s brown hair was completely covering his eyes but he didn’t care. He probably squished her a bit, but he just knelt there, listening to her attempted story time. He had a lot to catch up on, apparently, and Darcie intended to let him know the whole of it in one long, confusing sentence. He didn’t catch a single word of it, but that hardly mattered to her father. Keiran took a deep breath, shamelessly soaking in the feel and the smell of being home, only minimally surprised when he felt his eyes tear up.
Leaning back to look at her as she kept on, Keiran beamed proudly. She was already wonderful, wasn’t she? He could care less about the fact that he was confused and lost as to what she wanted to tell him. She was beautiful, and he had been away from her for far too long. He pressed a kiss to her forehead, quieting her. “I missed you so much, baby girl. I love you.”
She let out a giggle and Keiran allowed himself to register fully that he was home and safe and warm and that his family was there waiting for him. Would the twins forgive him this time? Worry took his features and Darcie frowned, watching him. Clever baby, his girl. Deciding it would be better to not try and explain it to her – even if she probably wouldn’t have understood it anyway – he just pulled her back into his arms and have her cheek another kiss.
“Where’s your mumma?” He asked finally, releasing her. She took hold of his pant leg when he stood, staring up at him. Perhaps she thought he was going to leave again. His heart broke a bit, undoing some of the mending that had been done by his stepping through the front door again. Stretching a hand down to her, he brushed his fingers through her hair. Turning towards the middle of the family home, he called out a greeting of sorts.
“Missie? Kelly Mae, Liam?”
In the other room, Mai had lifted an eyebrow at Darcie’s call, but passed it off as the kids playing. After all, Darcie was pretty young, and bound to make up words and sounds as she learned how to talk. But, there was no mistaking what came a minute or two later. Her head swung suddenly to the side, mouth hanging open. It couldn’t be. Could it?
As if it would prove a point to Darcie, Keiran turned around in the entryway – careful not to disturb the little girl in her attempt to hold him captive - and closed the door behind him. He wasn’t going anywhere. Not again. Not for a very long time. Her fingers released the fabric of his trousers as she clapped her hands together and he grinned down at her, a chuckle escaping for the first time in weeks.