I would like start by saying Hello. Secondly I'd like to apologise. At the start of September I was rather active across all my characters, posting daily and then suddenly I stopped, I vanished from the face of the PA Universe without a warning, without saying goodbye. For that I'm sorry. Not because it's rude to leave without saying goodbye but because of the threads I'd left behind, the relationships between our characters that were suddenly ignored. I've had characters in a plot or that are supported heavily by another persons character and when that player disappears I'm left in a pickle with my character, unsure whether to wait and continue saying such and such is in a relationship or to move on and pretend as though they drifted. It's difficult and whatever you have decided to work out I am happy with.
I suppose I should explain why I left. The truth is I don't completely know, one day I woke up, I was hit by a realisation at how short life is, how big my dreams are and that I need to dedicate myself to pursuing them and so I cut any distraction out of my life. Two months on and i feel consumed by my dreams that I need to escape from the escapism that is my dreams. My creativity is becoming tired, unlike how it was when I used to role play and exercise my imagination in different ways. Role playing has opened up my perspective and for that I thank you but I've also come to realise that PA was never a distraction, it was refreshing when I didn't over-role play and a part of me wants to return for that reason.
I guess this leads on to the question 'Am I returning?' I don't know, in all honesty. At the moment I'm feeling a little lost at sea, I'm tired, I need a break from reality and so I've decided to pop in and see what's happening, what people's characters are up to and how everyone is getting on. Do I want to return? Yes. However I don't know how much time I'd be able to commit, how long I'd around for and I feel as though it would be unfair to start threads and plots that could either develop into wonderful, continues things or develop into something beautiful and end abruptly.
So I'm going to give myself a few days and see how often I pop on before I commit and if I did decide to return I wouldn't be dusting off all my characters, perhaps only one or two, which brings me to my next point:
What to do with my characters.
Hallie I will be keeping open.
However Bertie, Sam Thomas, Francesca Bloom, Amelia Cooper and my dear Nott's will sadly have to be dropped. I feel guilty for doing this especially as Khaat created Amelia's husband (although I guess Hallie would still be around?) and Isadora Malfoy is married to Alexander. I've really enjoyed RPing them together and hope I don't feel like I've wasted your time... You are welcome to decide what to do with Alexander and Isadora.
If anybody wants to claim the characters I made then, if it's okay with admins, I shall happily hand them over to you if not then I'm guessing the canon characters will be put back into the available list and people can create and shape them as blank canvases again?
Hoping you're all well
RJ xx
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