“Then why…?”
Ellie trailed off, her brows lacing together over her narrowing eyes as she tried to work out what it was that this man wanted from her. She sidled an absent-mindedly look towards the bar, wondering if she could fabricate a reason to escape and retreat to her room. She adored company and loved speaking to different people but this only ever took place when she invited it. She was now more than a little bit thrown by someone actively seeking out her to talk to. Anxiety and a little bit of self-consciousness coupled together to make her wonder why he wanted to talk to her at all and she felt pathetic for it.
Her eyes fell to the glass he was lightly turning and she brought her lips together, trying to find an answer for him. She looked down at the book. The book. He’d asked about the book. Her eyes flickered upwards again and she spread her lips outwards, letting words bubble up from her chest and into her throat. She had no idea what they were going to be and that half-terrified her. She had no opinion on the book. It was alright, she supposed. Merlin knew she’d read worse in the past and she would no doubt read worse to come but it was alright and she summarised as much with a simple, concise:
“Yeah.”
Wonderful, Ell, a voice that sounded eerily like her sister’s went off at the back of her head and she closed her eyes, lowering her head ashamedly as she realised that she wasn’t going to get any high marks for being talkative or sociable tonight. She wondered to herself: had it been so long since she’d actually spoken to another human being, another man, who wasn’t basically family? She supposed the people that came into her library who she exchanged with the barest minimum of words didn’t really count. ‘Have a nice day’ was the closest she got to a meaningful conversation. She had to try harder.
“Well, I mean,” she juddered out hesitantly, “it’s actually … well, it’s crap really,” she looked at the cover, her brows furrowing again as she conceded that she did in fact have an opinion and it wasn’t a favourable one. She’d elaborated at least and shown in some capacity that she was alive and there was a brain behind the gormless staring she was doing. It really had been too long since she’d spoken to another human being, another man, who wasn’t basically family. She decided she needed to spend less time drinking with Declan and chatting to Keiran and actually go out and remember what it was like to talk to strangers – even flirt a little bit. Actually no. No, that really wasn’t a good idea.
Putting the book down with more reverence than she should have treated it with given her derision, Ellie extended her hand for her glass. She curled her fingers about it and shivered a bit from the chill of the outside. She bobbed a finger against the icy floating at the top of the dark liquid and for a few moments studied the popping coca-cola before looking up again as the man announced who he was. Louis. That was a good start. She half-wished he’d started with that to begin with. ‘Hi I’m Louis, can I sit with you’ would’ve been a better beginning. She probably would’ve been star-struck all the same and given up her table for him.
“I’m Ellie,” she replied gradually, managing to grasp for a smile. “You’re … um … you’re a regular?”