Finn liked the hours before going to a ball, or to a party, or to whichever social outing her father was actually letting her attempt. It was far better than the event itself, for that was when Finn found herself flustered and uncertain. Of course, she loved going. In theory, going out was so much better than being stuck inside all day long. The summers were full or boredom and loneliness for her, only fragmented by stolen interactions with the help and the odd day when Orpheus allowed her out to visit with her friends. She would wander her huge home, book in one hand, a sigh constantly hanging on her lips, lethargy in her joints. Being told there was a party changed everything.
She knew that once she got there, she would feel out of place. Somehow, she knew she was not a pureblood. Perhaps her father had been pureblood before he had been turned, but they had tainted blood now. It just... didn't count. And even though they were still invited every time, she somehow feared that the hosts would realize that the Grimms were intruders and they would be booted from the event. That would surely enrage Orpheus, and Fiona did not want to see her father truly angry.
She had been to many a pureblood event. She knew the social graces. She knew which spoons to pick up, which hand went where, and how to stay silent and avoid the champagne. She was great at standing erect and keeping her mouth clamped shut, her eyes bright and alert. The problem came when she was actually engaged in conversation. She spoke softly, she spoke politely, and she spoke with all the dignity and grace befitting a young woman on her way to womanhood. But she could never muster up anything interesting to say. All she wanted to say that might be interesting would center around her ragtag friends, and she knew she would be revealed as a fraud, as somehow who chose commoners over royalty. So she spoke of the weather, of the news, of the dresses, offering nothing more than superficial approval. And with each retreating back, she sunk into further belief that she was as useless as one human being could get.
But preparing for a ball... That was good. She had time alone. She bathed, she slipped on a dress she knew to be expensive and custom, and donned the expensive heirlooms that further fit the disguise. Her hair was brushed out, and slipped back into a black diamond headband. She was the picture of elegant youth, cultivated innocence. She slipped her feet into the heels and stood before her mirror, turning, ensuring the dress truly was modest yet flattering. It was perfect. Finn had very many perfect things. Her life could seem perfect.
She would appreciate it one day. She knew she would. She hoped she would.
She approached the estate on her father's arm, shivering with what he assumed to be anticipation. "Daddy, please tell me."
Orpheus smiled, nodding his head to another guest who had hurried from the home to retrieve his wife's shawl. "But, I love surprising you."
Finn shook her head, "But I hate it. You know I'm much better at small talk when I can prepare."
He laughed. "You think you are odder than you really are, Fig."
She scrunched up her nose, acting cute even though she knew she was much stranger than her father could even suppose. "You're just teasing me now."
He sighed. "Alright." The ascended the stairs. "I thought you would enjoy the surprise, because I think you know our hosts."
Finn faltered. "But I don't know anyone," she blurted.
He paused, turning his head to give his daughter a peculiar look. "Sure you do." He blinked, shaking off the comment and giving his daughter another charming smile. "Don' tell me that school I send you off to has kicked everyone else out."
Finn stopped in her tracks. Her father nearly yanked her along, not realizing she had stopped. He turned, looking at her. "Fiona-"
"We're at one of my classmates houses?" she said hollowly, pale.
Orpheus nodded. "Yes, the Zabinis. Fiona, come inside-"
Finn quickly shook her head, swallowing a salty lump down her throat. Tears were threatening to break. "No, Daddy. Please. I don't want to go in."
Orpheus stared. "I promised to introduce Norris Connolly to you. He's one of my business associates and he believes-"
"Daddy, please," Finn begged, stepping forward and grabbing his shirtsleeves. "I just can't. Please."
Her father's face darkened as suspicion loomed. "Why?"
She shook her head, her throat dry. "I... I just-"
"You're ashamed of us?"
"No, Daddy, no, that's not it, I-"
"Am ashamed of me."
"No, Daddy!" Tears welled in her eyes and Orpheus turned away, looking at the doors. "Please, I just don't want to go."
Orpheus turned back to look at his daughter, his face stony and cold. "You will go inside. You will dance. You will eat. You will talk. Do you understand?"
Agony stretched her features as she whispered, "Daddy-"
"You will make everyone envy us for being Grimms. Do you understand?"
There was the cruelty in her father's face that she had seen before, the cruelty that plagued her nightmares, that unsettled her reality. She dropped her gaze and quietly followed her father up the steps and through the world.
It was nice having friends while it lasted.