Albus Potter was a selfish sod.
That was what he contemplated as his thumb brushed, back and forth on the curling edge of the yellowed parchment that currently lay flat on the desk in his study. It had been delivered within a crisp, rectangular white envelope, currently residing in the otherwise empty wastepaper basket that the heel of his shoe nudged against, as it kicked back and forth, absently, beneath the desk. The Hogwarts seal, initially bright red and embossed across the envelope joint, was now shrunken, cracked, black- and the beginning ends of Draco dormiens nunquam titilla-” peeked slyly at him between the longitudinal and vertical bamboo strips of the crosshatched basket, diverting from the matter of attention again. Which was this.
His sister was missing from school.
He says ‘his sister’ and not ‘Lily’, because it seemed strangely difficult to reconcile the ‘sister’ they mention in the letter, the one who’d evidently bunked school and a month’s classes and exams, with the Lily that existed in his head, the Lily whose memories he had to dust off a little to remember that she was pretty good at her academics. It was admittedly easier to match their description with the sallow-faced, reticent teenager that had stayed in his home a week, then upped and vanished the moment school opened- though now he learned that she hadn’t quite been headed there. And he watched the broken Hogwarts seal on the envelope in order to stop his eyes from scanning the letter and re-reading the words Your sister, Miss Lily Luna Potter... so that it would sink in, that they wrote ‘your sister’ because they actually expected him to do something about her disappearing. Because they thought she was his responsibility.
Albus Potter was a selfish sod, he thought again, without any real heat behind the words. Because yes societal norms decreed that he should be responsible for his underage sister, but Potters had stopped trying to take care of each other a long time ago, because bad things happened when they tried. They only succeeded in making more of a mess of things than they originally were, and he had tried, though admittedly not as hard as he could have, in the week of his sister’s stay; but the indifferent, irritated eyes had told him exactly where to shove his ‘brotherly affections’. And after she left, it had been easy to forget the existence of his sister, or at least shove it to the back of his mind.
But now Lily was gone, just like James- and Albus was expected to do something about it.
The coat went on over his shoulders with minimum fuss, the socks rolled up and the shoes on and laces tied tight within fifteen minutes. The twins were thankfully asleep, the girls probably preoccupied in their own fun if the continuous bangs and shrieks coming from their room were any indication and Athena still in the shower, so he paced down the steps and closed the door behind him quietly; and let his eyes fall shut to imagine his destination. A quick squeezing sensation around his belly, air being sucked out of his chest, and a graceless stumble later, green irises opened to and blinked at the sight of Hogsmeade.
Boots crunching over gravel, Albus made his way down the High Street, pausing for a few seconds each at the doorways of Honeydukes and the Three Broomsticks: the former’s cellar had a handy passageway to Hogwarts and sweets for a girl’s appetite, the latter a warm bed to sleep in- but he would never have taken shelter in either of these places, so Lily wouldn’t have either. So this was why his feet came to a halt for a third time outside the grimy, unapproachable sign of the Hog’s Head, and his head ducked into the doorway without a thought.
Minutes later, he stepped back out, and his thoughts were in a much more considerable flurry than before. Yes, a young, black-haired girl with a rucksack had stayed beneath their roof for more than a month- but she hadn’t returned last night. She could have headed back to Teddy’s, limbs sore and careworn, or taken refuge in some random countryside pub, or even been hidden by Casey inside the castle and simply not reported to the authorities yet- this was getting tricky.
“-howls.....bloo’ chilling, the lo’ of them, frightened me ol’ Aunty Em ou’ of her skin..”
“Blood’s pack again, I’m tellin’ ya mate....the ruddy wolves won’t seem to keep outta this place..”
“-heard crashin’ in the woods, only hope some poor codger din’ get ambushed by tha’ filthy lo’-”
And his feet were walking, setting off towards the end of the road in a destination that only they seemed to know, and it seemed stupid to search for a deserted spot to Disapparate considering he was standing in the biggest Wizarding village of Britain, because it was stupider to think he was actually heading to the outskirts of Hogsmeade because of a partially overheard conversation. People gossip uselessly, and surely Lily’s too sensible to stay out on a full moon night even though he’d previously have thought her too sensible to risk failing and getting expelled.....
Then his feet stilled.
There was a willow tree in his field of view now, just a few metres away from the point where the road dwindled into grass. A branch, at least two feet in girth had been snapped clean off and was lying among the rushes, the tiny green leaves discoloured and trampled. There were three, long gouges down the knot set into the trunk- and a small scrap of denim dangling from a twig jabbing straight out of the base. Its tip gleamed with something dark, and sticky and almost black enough not to be red.
His wand had slid out of its holster, landing in his palm with a soundless thump, and his fingers barely clung on, cold and sweat-slicked. His hand didn’t shake as he held it aloft, light trickling in faintly through the clouds and the leaves, illuminating the slender rod of wood. Breath puffed out, almost non-existent through his lips, hitting the wand. “Point me Lily Potter.”
It spun, barely balancing on the cold, wet palm, and when it stopped, its tip pointed resolutely north-east, deeper into the woods. Towards the trail of destruction, the trampled grass and the clawed paw-prints that his eyes had been trying resolutely not to see.
Then.....then....he was vaguely, barely aware of something pounding restlessly against his chest, seeming quite like it might tear out through muscle and sinew and bone. It throbbed in his ears, and sounded not like a heartbeat, but a clock ticking its seconds out.
He was barely aware of his movements afterwards, just the ground rising and falling beneath his feet, the branches flapping into his eyes, a stitch searing up his side, heartbeat pumping faintly in his ears. His vision alternated in flashes- green and black and gold raking across his eyes, leaving numbed nicks and scratches, a little toddler rubbing her elbows, eyes welling up as two boys stand across the fireplace and quarrel over who dropped her, paw-prints here, a smeared blood-stain on a boulder there, a girl scowling on the platform with folded arms as her brothers fleeted off to the magical school again, the thickets of trees getting thicker, the stains getting larger, small stifled snorts of laughter as he banged on the bathroom door yet again, demanding to be let out, and a gleam in brown eyes as pale hands proffer a guitar looking like reptile scales, with a snake winding around it and the sly words- ’For our resident Slytherin.’, and fist pumps as she thrashed the entire household in Gobstones and a tiny, huddled figure hugging James’ knee as their mother’s coffin enters the ground and-
And those knees. He could recognize those knees anywhere, thin and knobbly like their father and his grandfather before them, but they’re scraped and bruised and bloody through the torn material of her jeans, and those are contusions, purple and ugly on the skin on her shoulder that’s pale enough never to have seen sunlight, but is clearly visible through the tatters of what was once a shirt, and can now be barely held together by her trembling fingers, and salt and blood and mud disfiguring her face, and vomit dribbling past her lip, and that. That sound echoing faintly in the silence of the trees is his wand, falling from slackened fingers and clattering to the floor.
“Lils.”