Khaat had been totally blindsided by the morning's events. It was supposed to have taken only 30 minutes. Surely no longer. Marcus had been with her. He and she both had known the risks and had thought they were prepared.
They had gone to Sparks at 4:30 in the morning, hoping to elude the Blood pack that so often stalked her movements, but something had gone horribly wrong somewhere. She'd gone into the office at the bistro to straighten out a debacle with a supplier. Lizzie, her faithful chef had brought mugs of tea to her and to Marcus.
Within moments, Marcus was quite alarmed, drowsy, trying to warn her before he fell to the floor from whatever had been slipped into his tea. She got up, frightened, wand drawn, determined not to leave him alone, when her own chef, Lizzie, had overtaken her and subdued her. She felt betrayed and completely confused.
In the process of it, with the stress of it, she had known her water had broken in the bistro office. She knew she was going to go into labor. She felt herself being whisked away, leaving Marcus behind, motionless on the floor.
Lizzie wasn't Lizzie, though. The polyjuice wore off, and Khaat found she was in the clutches of James's alpha female, Moira. Khaat had fought and had struggled hard. Moira was quick to cuff her hard--hard enough to stun her momentarily, and Khaat wondered whether Moira had broken one of Khaat's cheekbones. It was certainly swelling and bruising. Moira took her to some godforsaken, dark part of London and dragged her down into a maze of basement rooms with gray stone walls. There were hallways every direction, and most of the sounds were coming from the south hallway. Moira dragged her off into the northern hallway and tossed her roughly into a cell and locked her in.
The only light she had was from a street grating that was far above her. No one would see her here or hear her. In the dim light, she could see that people had been kept prisoner here before. She could see the desperateness all around her--their frantic efforts to escape--clawing at anything, digging, chipping, hammering...and no evidence that anything had ever worked.
She even found loose stones in the walls and in the floor where there were hiding places dug into the dirt behind and beneath the rocks. Places where sharp fragments of shale were stashed for any newcomers here. Spoons, bits of sticks, anything to give someone else hope and maybe some time.
But then her own private hell unleashed itself upon her. Labor. She panicked completely and utterly in a way she didn't remember ever feeling before. Her children were supposed to have been born in love. Brought into a world that was full of good things. Brian was supposed to be here. But here they were, about to be introduced into the hands of a bloodthirsty monster. This was wrong on every level of everything she knew and valued and loved.
In utter desperateness, she tried to get the symptoms of labor to go away, but she knew that was futile and ridiculous. She tried to think. The whole place smelled like the blood of past and present kills, so more blood wouldn't be noticed. What would be noticed was sound. If she made any.
She did her level best to stay completely silent. She had no choice. The labor was fast and hard. Brutal. But she delivered the twins--identical twin boys--alone. Lupin boys. She had no desire for James to use them as any sort of crown jewels in his psychotic empire.
She took a lace from her boot and tied it around the ankle of the baby born first--just so she might be able to tell them apart if they lived.
She wept. Was it better to let James find them? To deliver them only to lose them to him? And if not, what was the alternative? Horrible thoughts of every sort passed through her mind, and some were unconscionable. Some were thoughts she was too ashamed to ever speak of to anyone ever. If she lived, the memories of knowing those thoughts had passed through her mind would surely haunt her forever. She was completely exhausted, and she had little strength left at all.
Hide them. It was all she had left. As stupid and desperate and pointless as it sounded, hiding them was all she had. She cast a sleep spell on each baby and then took her own clothing and wrapped the babies warmly in her clothes. Then, she rearranged the stones in the floor so they didn't quite fit right, so that it would leave them air. She tucked the babies into the hole under the stones in the floor and replaced the stones carefully to hide them.
Then, sitting in just her panties and her bra, as traumatic shock started to take over and dull her thinking and her senses, she sat in the cold and shook-partly from shock and fatigue, partly from the cold, and partly out of sheer terror.
As much as she didn't want to be here, as much as she didn't want her babies here, she desperately wanted them to forget about her. Leave her here to die. Don't start a war over her. Not over her, not over the babies.
She knew her father. She knew he would come. Even as he was, he would come. And if he came as he was, it would be a terrible thing unleashed on the wizarding world. Worse yet if they found her or the babies dead. She sat, rocking herself to try to warm herself and comfort herself, hoping that just this one time, he wouldn't be willing to walk into Hell for her.