Whatever Trisha had expected, it wasn’t this. She had no idea that Caspian was going to pick her hand up with his and keep hold of it as they left the castle. The walk was essentially silent, except perhaps for her near-silent gasp at the physical contact. No one really got very close to her, if she stopped to think about it. Over the years, the only people who ever bothered touching her or taking up her hand in theirs were family members.
But wasn’t that what Caspian was supposed to be in a month’s time? Her family?
If he saw her as such, Tris knew she would put in as much effort as she could manage to give him back whatever he gave. Love was clearly something she didn’t understand outside of her family members, but if she grew to love him nearly as much as she loved her siblings or parents, they wouldn’t have any problems. Of that, she was sure.
She nearly broke the silence to suggest that he had made an intelligent choice in his leading her down to the grounds; it was often quiet, and this time of year she didn’t quite expect many people to be out and about. Then again, he was a Ravenclaw, was he not? He knew the probability of his choice being a good one, and she needn’t point it out. As if he could sense her fears or desperation to break the silence, Tris caught his movement out of the corner of her eye as he started to speak.
Not nearly as taken aback as she perhaps should have been, Trisha looked up at him briefly, pretending not to notice the fact that out of everyone she could have been stuck with, she’d gotten him. Caspian seemed like someone who actually cared when he asked a question – didn’t just say things to say them or ask things to pretend to listen. According to the law, Muggleborns were more likely to marry Purebloods – and his last name certainly sounded like he was. So maybe she was right in thinking that he didn’t really want this. Trisha wasn’t the lucky type who would just happen into being matched with a guy who actually didn’t approve of the Pureblood supremacy theory. She never seemed to have things go her way. Especially with guys; her last attempt at a semblance of a relationship had ended after one miserable Quidditch Match and the realization that he wasn’t actually interested. Not that she blamed him. No, indeed, she was quite the awkward individual and knew it, too.
“Well,” she started suddenly, realizing she had never answered him. “See, my family, the Bates family, um, we’re not exactly the most popular people in town. My parents are what one might call Ghost Hunters in the Muggle world – as my parents are both Muggles. My siblings and I help out sometimes.” Tris could barely believe she was even getting the words out, nonetheless so many at once. How was it so easy to talk to him? Of course, she feared being judged by most everyone, but the way he had so easily accepted this and asked what she wanted? It made things seem less… complicated. Tris squeezed his hand gently before she realized she’d done it, loosening her hand entirely, to the point where if he wanted to drop it he could do so easily. He probably hadn’t intended to so it originally and then felt he couldn’t undo what he’d done without getting himself into trouble.
“But the thing is, though,” she continued, “I don’t really see them as ghost hunters exactly. They want to help people, and help the spirits that are trapped in the houses or buildings. It isn’t some Muggle show where they go about provoking them.” The thought made her bristle slightly, but she kept it to herself. The annoyed tone might have suggested her feelings about it, though. “When I go on trips with them, I’m almost what you might call a go-between. I can get through to them and understand them more easily than my parents or siblings can. I guess when people here found out,” Tris added, gesturing to the grounds and the castle with her free hand, “they just thought we were mental. Bad enough that their being Muggles makes them targets to begin with. Now they want to talk to ghosts? People around here don’t understand it.”
She shook her head before looking across the grass in front of them – she just needed to look somewhere besides at him. Trisha feared she would give her whole self away if he let her keep talking like this. Her mind was telling her to shut up and let the boy speak (or run away, if that was his preferred action) but she just couldn’t seem to stop. Not when she could finally tell someone about everything.
“So now I’m sort of determined to work with spirits – maybe not through the Ministry anymore, with all of their mental laws, but somewhere. Mostly to prove everyone wrong.”
Shrugging it off as she so often found herself doing around her classmates, she let her free arm wrap around her torso as if it could protect her from any response he gave. Undoubtedly he would think her as mad as everyone else did. Right?