Jack woke up every day, got up, and ran a mile. As she ran down sidewalks, she ran conversations long had or never to be had through her mind. She remembered faces of loved ones long gone - Chip, off the grid; Elliot, from the world; Vito, from the world's consciousness; and Nemo, from her life. They ran just beyond her, out of reach, a step ahead of her.
Her mile often turned into several.
She came home to wake up the child that was not hers, made a breakfast she never seemed to enjoy, took Sunny to a school Jack knew had terrible standards, and went to a job she knew she used to enjoy and yet... could no longer do so. She worked her ass off, picked Sunny up from a daycare she could not afford, and home life was a blur.
And then, she went to bed. Only, she didn't. She laid awake for ours, just staring at the wall, attempting not to listen to the last words that still echoed through her skull, trying not to hold her blankets close to replace those who used to be beside her, and trying to avoid the fact that it was very possible she was going crazy.
And then the weirdest thing happened. And it happened today.
Six o'clock hit. And... Jack woke up.
It took her a minute to realize she had. After all, she had grown accustomed to not sleeping and to wake up meant... well, she knew it meant she had slept, but it was hard for her to believe. She had slept. She had slept well. No nightmares. No threat of tears. No anxieties. No fervent prayers. Just wonderful, long-awaited, almost-forgotten sleep.
Two miles because she made such good time with mile one. Sunny woke like an angel. Breakfast was hearty, tasty, and had mounds of bacon - bacon always made it better. Sunny went to school, and Jack received a report that the girl was soon becoming top of the class. Jack continued on to the most enjoyable and most rewarding practice of the season. She picked Sunny up and, on a whim, took her to a close friend's house for the night.
She had made a decision. It almost seemed like she was recovering. But she had to know for sure. She had to use the Drunk Test. She always used it, because it was fool proof. If she could go out, get drunk, and have fun - she was recovering. If getting drunk dissolved her into a pitiful state of self-loathing and grief, then today was just an anomaly.
It was a risk, but she had to know.
She was changing into nicer clothes (nice for Jack meant clean) when she heard the door open, and then close. She stepped out into the hall and pointed at her roommate, her finger pointed straight between his eyes. "Don't take off your coat. We're going to the Ornery Ogre for a drink."
Well, several drinks.