Oh where to begin PA... where to begin.
I suppose, I need to decide who I'm writing to. Is it PA? Is it to the little voice in the back of my head that seeks self-approval? Is it to you guys, the members? I think I'll try for all three.
I suppose some memories are necessary. I remember joining the old PA - there was a site before this one - and freaking out immediately, not knowing a thing about RPing, then dropping off the map.
But then I came back! AJ and Andrian had gone through some phase of making sites for everything that caught their interest (In fact, I'll admit that the Founder, Sue, and myself went through that phase - can't believe I ever started a Twilight RP) and eventually I landed up here.
Let me tell you, it wasn't pretty. Jess' "thing" was that he would laugh at himself a lot, do the most absurd, stupid... things... have to just leave it at things... and though he was the best person in the world.
And come on, he totally was, right?
I remember all the weddings. Andrian and Soph, Andrian and Belle, Soph and Jake, Andrian and Soph, Andrian and Soph, and of course, Myself and Mari. Yeah. When I was 13 I had the emotional depth to get married, how cool am I...
I lived through Danevra, I somehow survived Hogwarts (though I've gotta get back some time
)
I also want us to remember members from the past who are no longer with us. People like our darling Amelia, the amazing Ginevra, the foundress herself, Sue, and of course, on a more personal, real level for myself, Nikki, a member of ours who passed away last year. This site couldn't possibly be what it is now without everyone who has ever posted a single word on the board.
And of course, I suppose, it's important to talk about the beautiful admin team that I have worked with. Of course, we have all fought with the admin team. We've all had mutinous discussions where we consider making our own site and saying "up yours PA admins" and we've all eventually decided that it's just easier to let the admins, myself included, just go on under the pretence of some semblance to power, whilst we just do our own things.
Note how I say we, like I'm one of you guys?! Accept me!?!!?!??!?!? LOVE ME PA!?!?!???!?!
Though, I'll say now, we, the admins, never mean to cause offence. Whatever we do, always try and see that we have the best of intentions, be it for the individual or the site as a whole. This doesn't always work out best, we know... the road to hell, after all, is paved with good intentions. But know that we do love each and every one of you, and whenever a member leaves, it doesn't escape our attentions, nor our discussions.
But seriously, I've gone through ups and downs with the site, I've met the most beautiful people in the world and have seen myself, outside of PA, become a more confident, outgoing person. Much like Jack, I've struggled on the friend front when it's come to PA, but eventually I came to the opinion that I have enough friends on the site, with all of you, and so I just want to keep it to all of you
Anyway, I know you're all thinking that I should shut up, because I'm long winded... fair point.
I'll finish by saying that it's hard to really sum up how I feel about PA with words, ironic, given the nature of what we do here on the boards. PA makes me feel like I'm at home, and, despite what Darren says, I think that as long as there is a core group of PA members, we can have fun amongst ourselves. We don't need new members or millions of posts. We just need each other.
I love you PA, and I love everyone who is a part of it, past, present, and future.
:')