Now that Amelia had caught on to Jack’s sarcasm, the conversation was moving more fluidly. The Ravenclaw should have expected it, and since she frequently spoke with the same dry sense of humor – if you could really call it that – she ought to have been more fluent in the language. But honestly, Amelia could barely manage English tonight, as she had proven several times with the guests of higher standing, who if they hadn’t known better might have assumed she had only read the page on greetings and salutations in the book of English.
“No, no,” Amelia said, attempting to copy Jack’s cordiality but falling short. You would think after years of faking this kind of social grace that Amelia would be better at it. But much to her mother’s disappointment… she wasn’t, “They’ve given me full title to do whatever I want. There are no expectations, pressures, assumptions, or politics involved whatsoever.”
It’s a good thing Jack is half decent at this, because if you’re not careful, you’re going to lose this position just as quickly as you got it, Amelia’s subconscious warned, not unjustified. Amelia’s practiced smile was fading, and she dragged it back into place at the thought.
At Jack’s offer of ‘distractions’, Amelia looked warningly in her direction, her eyes as wide as she dared to make them without signaling alarm to any of their onlookers. Amelia didn’t know precisely what Jack had up her sleeve, but if she had to guess, it wouldn’t be anything discreet.
“I have the distinct feeling that you protecting your reputation will not exactly coincide with me upholding mine,” Amelia whispered, holding back both laughter and panic. She was referring, of course, to the reputation Jack had held as a student for being a troublemaker, which Amelia certainly did not need tonight. She was doing a bang up job of looking foolish all on her own.
Offering Jack the best smile she could muster, Amelia turned her attention back to the room at large. It was difficult to tell whether watching the crowd as it formed was better or worse than looking at it only periodically. One gave a rising sense of panic, but the other allowed her to be in denial… but only for short periods of time. And it seemed like every time she looked up there were more and more faces, people she had seen only in the newspaper, people she had never seen before…
… and people she recognized far too well.
Amelia’s breath caught in her throat immediately upon spotting him. It was as though her brain was not only losing its ability to speak, but also to command her basic body functions. His form and features were recognizable even from this distance, Amelia’s mind having slipped into remembering him every so often since the last time they had seen one another. His suit was tailored exquisitely, a drastic change from the slightly dirty clothes she had seen him in when he was working all those months ago. Back when she was still a student. It had only been months since she was a student – no wonder she was freaking out!
But when Amelia spotted Marcus, suddenly she wasn’t so certain that her visceral reaction to the situation had anything to do with the mounting crowd, with the line of people still waiting to shake her hand, or the photographers from every newspaper in greater Britain snapping away. Because where there had been panic earlier, the kind that eats your stomach lining in small bites, there was now a twisting sensation, lower in her abdomen and filled with heat as she remembered their last encounter.
As her cheeks flushed deep crimson with thoughts of the storage room floor, Amelia was reminded with shocking swiftness that she was only 19. Her body did not have control of its hormones, and they were certainly suggesting some alternative methods of stress relief involving herself and the werewolf that had come through the doors of the Great Hall, whose eyes were settled right onto hers, but for some reason, carried much more weight than the dozens of others doing the same thing.
You’re staring… Amelia’s subconscious probed, trying to get Amelia to come back from her own thoughts. When Amelia’s rational brain didn’t respond, her subconiscious got louder. Ahem… what I meant was… STOP STARING.
This time it got through, and Amelia shook her head to try to clear it of the thoughts involving herself and Marcus, which had been traitorous but still far preferable the reality she found herself in. Would he approach her? Did he want to see her? What was he thinking? Did he even remember her or what had happened between them, or was he here like all the others, to gawk at the youngest headmaster ever?
There were too many questions, none of which Amelia could answer, and those debilitating thoughts were creeping back in, those thoughts the new headmistress of Hogwarts ought not be having…
“Um… Jack…” Amelia said, her voice stumbling over the simple words, “I think I could… um… use a glass of water. Would you accompany me briefly?” Amelia asked, gesturing toward a table on the far side, off the stage. She just needed a few minutes to collect her thoughts and let the blush subside before she could greet more members of the upper eschelon.
Smiling apologetically as possible, Amelia asked her attendant – she had attendants, for Merlin’s sake – to please placate the line until she could return from her brief break. Amelia knew she couldn’t afford to be away for long, but she just needed a minute. Or an hour. Or a lifetime.
But for now, a few minutes would have to suffice.