Don't You Want Me?

The sign on the door read Seventh Years. This was the third time Mira had been standing with terrified anticipation on this doorstep. For only a second ago she had knocked. And half of her heart hoped more than anything it would be one of the other boys that answered. That he wouldn't be in. That she could just walk away without any additional pain in her heart. That would probably be the best thing that could happen right now. The Mira that was standing here was not at her finest. She had no magic makeup on and her hair had a few strands that kept falling into her eyes. As for clothes all she had on was a pair of old, navy blue, comfortable, muggle sweatpants and a plain tank top. The definition of casual. This dramatic difference from her normal highly cared for appearance was due to the fact that she had literally just got up out of bed. It was still a bit early - 6:45 or so and many people were still eating dinner but Mira had skipped in favor of reading her book, Muggles who Meddled in Magic. It wasn't very interesting but it was written well and she and grown to enjoy the feeling that books gave her. They turned out to be the most relaxing thing to give her mind peace. As she had been relaxing on her bed Mira had found she simply needed to see him again. Just to SEE. See if he hated her now, if she still loved him, and if they were just in another speedbump or if it was really over for good.

Mira was pretty sure she could accept the end if they had no spark any more or he looked at her that was that he always had in the past. And maybe that was what she was looking for.. Some proof that it was time to let go. Proof that he didn't want her anymore. The door opened. One look and Mira knew she was still in love. His face and features so familiar from all of the times she had traced them with her hands. Having him actually in front of her was totally different then the Elijah in her head. Having him there brought on waves of desire and longing to just be held by those arms. Mira knew how easy it would be to fall right into him and let this love consume every part of her. But it wasn't that simple. 

Before he could get a word out she spoke. "I couldn't do it. Remove the tattoo I mean. I tried but I just couldn't. I was really, really wrong. Like even worse than I normally am. I need you and I was so so stupid." A pause. "It says to strive to be happy. But I know now that I couldn't dream of being happy without having you by my side. And I'd really like to say I'm a changed woman and I'm everything you need but I can't. I'm not even remotely close to perfect but I'm trying my hardest. The last few months I've been so.. lost.. Feels like I've been struggling to breathe.. I miss you so much I don't think I can bear it for one more second." Mira breathed in and one for a second, feeling like she was on the verge of tears. "I get it that you probably hate me but I-I just can't seem to hate you. Even in the kindest possible way. Oh my god I miss you. Please say you missed me too." 

It just kept coming. Every word she had been thinking for the last few months had just tumbled it's way out of her mouth. He probably thought she was a complete idiot now. But despite being shaky, tears slipping down her cheeks, and being the most sincere with someone she had ever been she felt a little relieved. That was everything she felt, right down to her core and now it was out on the table. Even if he slammed the door in her face at least he could leave knowing how full and strong her love for him was. He would always be everything.

OOC: Impulse thread. I think this is truly where Mira is at the moment and what she would be doing but if you don't want it to happen we could move it to AU or just delete. I figure just rolling with it with no planning might be the most fun for these guys at the moment. But whatever you want just because I love you.