She was considering it. She was honestly debating it. To throw herself off, to feel the rush of the wind and eventually make the ‘splat’ that all movies portrayed as the impact sound, well...it would finally bring her peace. Millie wasn’t to be allowed that though because the bumbling boy she’d found - or rather, had found her - had decided to play dashing hero and he pried her from the side of the bridge as if she were nothing more than a lightweight painting coming off of the wall. She was sure now that the majority of her weight consisted of the bandages that the matron had mummified her lower-torso in. In what felt like, and probably was, a blink of an eye, she was cradled into the arms of a boy she’d met mere minutes before as he took the steps to save her life from herself. She sighed heavily as tears filled her eyes and she gave a little huff when he set her back down on the ground. She drew her legs back up to her chest once more and rested her chin on her knees, unsure how to progress.
Suicide was clearly a failure in the making so that she’d skip on. Perhaps she’d have no choice but to live it out, wait until Trent destroyed his own person and at that point she could destroy hers. He wouldn’t though. No, he’d change his mind just to unintentionally spite her. Millie didn’t know how she could live with herself, dirtied as she was. She saw no rhyme or reason to live before but now there was little else to enjoy...little else to appreciate, want or need. There was Trent though, that little beacon of light in her life that was the darkness in his own. She adored him, admittedly, and she would have done anything for him. Yet...he wouldn’t do the same for her, would he? Or would he? She didn’t know. She had forgotten, in the midst of everything, how they truly worked with one another. She wanted nothing more to crawl back into his bed, cuddle up to him, apologise for her wrong doings and sleep away the animosity and the pain. She couldn’t, though. She didn’t think she ever could again.
“Family? Friends? What planet are you on?” Millie looked up at the boy, ‘Peter’, and scoffed. Her hands fell to her stomach and she pursed her lips, probing the thick bandage there. “You have no idea how empty I feel. There is someone....or, well, there should be. He blows hot and cold all the time. I have no idea whether he loves me or not and to be honest, I don’t think it really matters whether he does or he doesn’t. Either way, it doesn’t matter. Friends? Well, they’re wrapped up in their lives, their problems...their love affairs. And my family...well that’s a completely different story. The parents hate each other, my brother is a foul, loathsome little wretch and, well, my aunt is pregnant again I think. Might be wrong. She’s also not my aunt. So, you know, apart from those blips, everything’s peachy. I was only raped, nearly murdered and robbed of what was mine to have, mine to keep. I didn’t know but so what? I’m sure the gossip whores would love to hear that the Finnigan bitch got knocked up by someone. I have an idea, you know, but that doesn’t matter. I’m alive aren’t I? I’m in reasonable health and I have very little to live for currently. So explain to me, why you don’t want little old me to die? It’s, um...Millie by the way. Melissa, I suppose.”