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The irony of Nerissa having gone the entirety of forty-two hours without sleep before having come to such a decision, was uncanny, as it had been under these same terms that they had first laid eyes on each other in Knockturn Alley. From that evening on, Nerissa's sanity had begun to deteriorate rapidly, and presently, there was close to nothing left to speak of. Nerissa was certain that this had been Ne'Os' plan all along. Certainly, he had intended to remove every logical brain sell from her skull when he'd tortured her - and he'd done a splendid job at doing so. Every memory was vivid. Even with the year of time that had passed since her kidnapping, since she'd been ripped from her comfortable world of blissful ignorance, every event was as clear as it had been when it had occurred. Such things could not simply be forgotten. Especially not after the battle that had taken place at Hogwarts.
Ne'Os had spoken of a horcrux that he had created when Nerissa had been in his 'custody', and thus, when everyone who knew of the Death Eater's name had rejoiced upon learning that he had been murdered, Nerissa hadn't allowed her to feel any such relief. She had anticipated his return, and had shivered and wept to herself when she'd imagined the rage that he was sure to harbor over the time that it took for him to reserect himself. Surely, he would revisit Nerissa, and would punish her for having run from the place where he'd once kept her. Nerissa would not raise her glass to that. She would not celebrate the idea of being murdered in her sleep upon Emof's return. Despite the knowledge of her impending doom, however, nothing could have prepared her for the sight of him on Hogwarts' soil the evening of the battle. No warning in advance could have granted Nerissa the psychological strength to face the man who had broken her, and thus, she had fled at the sight of him.
Much to Nerissa's dismay, she was not rid of his image even after she'd escaped him; it was as though his face had been tattooed to the flip side of her eyelids, and with each time she blinked, he paid her yet another visit. Even after having altered his appearance to such a drastic extent, Nerissa had recognized those eyes. In fact ,she could have done so in a sea of people, for they were imprinted in her mind. It was for this very reason that Nerissa had become incapable of drifting off to sleep.
Like a ghost he haunted her.
In every corner, and every shadow he stood - watching, with amusement twinkling beneath his irises.
Alas, Nerissa reached the highest floor of the public owlery tower. Surely, if there was any proper place for Nerissa to make herself visible, it was in the sky - which she swore that she could touch as she extended one of her frail and freckled arms above her head. The clouds that hovered above the wizarding world were mere inches from her fingertips, and the sun had nearly blinded her when she'd shoved her way past that last door and had stepped into its light. Never before had Nerissa been so close to Heaven - and yet, she could not escape the flames of Hell as they danced within her core. What better place to summon the devil?
Nerissa stepped towards the thick railing that enclosed the tower of her choice, and which also acted as a perch for the many owls that had been left there to fend for themselves. "Hey!" The wind carried Nerissa's scream to those below her. Whether they cast her any glances, she did not know. "Ne'Os Emof!" He would hear her. Somehow, under some impossible circumstance, he would learn of her attempts to contact him. It was his way, after all.
Her lips trembled, and her exhaustion became a near unbearable aching along her bones.
Never before had Nerissa done something so life-threatening, and once more, Ne’Os was to blame.