The door acted as a shield. A shield that falsely reassured Vito that he would not be seen, if he chose to break down. That he would not be heard, if he came to decision that he could no longer contain the screams that he’d attempted to bite back when in the presence of his rival. When under the scrutiny of his redheaded companion, Vito would not allow himself to crumble any further than he previously had. While he could not have prevented himself from falling as far as he had; screaming aloud, and struggling with the sobs that had so desperately attempted to escape his lips, after having gained control over himself, he had refused to display any further emotion before Jack’s blank gaze. But as he burned a hole through the door that he had only just slammed shut, the opportunity to release the last of his self control from his crumbled fist was far too tempting for Vito to resist.
A tortured scream cut its way free from Vito’s throat, and rang throughout the room. It was an unnatural noise; a sound that could not have been produced by any human throat, and a human pair of lungs. Once more, it seemed that the poltergeist that Vito had locked within the meatsuit that he so proudly flaunted, day in and day out, had torn itself free. The scream rang against the reflective glass of the mirror to Vito’s left, as well as the empty bottle of wine that he had carried to his bedside table the evening prior. It rapped against every windowpane within Vito’s bedroom, and slid down every wall like several fingernails being dragged across a chalkboard. Never before had any noise that Vito had ever made been so honest. Never had Vito so sincerely expressed the pain that he experienced, for not a single event in his past had been capable of drawing such a reaction outward from his core. When the Ministry’s handcuffs had nearly killed Vito’s host, he had screamed. He had screamed a few moments prior, when the truth behind his recent creation had occurred to him. But not on one of these occasions had he let go so completely.
Having exhausted his rage, Vito fell. With one shoulder pressed firmly against the door, Vito crumbled to the chilled floor beneath his feet. His logical thoughts had abandoned him. The desire to murder Jack, fizzled as he leaned his upper body heavily against the door. There was nothing left to feel but sorrow; a deep-rooted misery that felt far too human for Vito to understand. He could not explain the reason behind the feeling of betrayal that he had experienced upon learning that Jack was his creator. And as much as he wished to banish the unwanted, negative emotions that she had inflicted upon him, Vito found that he could do nothing of the sort.
By whom was Vito being forced to feel so much like a mortal? Jack?
Or was his own mind truly that sadistic as to inflict such turmoil upon itself?
A sob reached Vito’s ears as he clutched his head in his trembling hands. That indifference, that robotic façade that Jack had hidden behind, had fallen. Just as Vito’s mask had slipped from his face, and had fallen to the floor. Two like reactions, occurring simultaneously - no; one reaction. Jack’s reaction was all that existed.
Vito tangled every finger in his slick, brown hair, and pulled it backwards roughly. The sharp sting at the base of each strand of hair provided Vito with a momentary distraction from the physiological pain that he’d been plagued with. But the moment of relief was far to brief too be enjoyed. “You did this to me. It is your fault. The pain - the hatred - the struggle. You were my distraction. The only moment of relief that I could find,” Vito whispered to Jack through the door, though he did not truly desire for his words to be heard. So broken was he, that, if Jack was to hear him, it would surely only worsen the situation. Vito gave his hair another tug, and pressed his forehead against his shield.
“You were supposed to fix me. But you were the one who created me to begin with.”