A Conversation (M)

Julia held Scorpius' hand and lead him up the narrow stairway to her room, nearly falling flat on her face with each step she took. She was drunk, but not drunk enough to not know what was going on. Julia was pretty much the same when she was intoxicated, she usually had good control as well. Though her footing had always been a problem, even if she was sober; she wasn't the most coordinated person. She still knew exactly what she was going to do, and was continuing to grow more nervous the closer she got to the room. How would she tell him? Should she come right out and say it? Or should she beat around the bush and let him guess? Right now, however, she really needed to focus on getting her key into the door, and her own door at that.

Once she unlocked the door, Julia pushed it open and the lamps turned themselves on as they stepped inside. Julia immediately took off her heels, relieved that her feet finally had some breathing room. "make yourself at home, thank you for escorting me back, by the way. You're welcome to stay if you'd like. I believe I owe you a night from the summer." She winked playfully at him and giggled, recalling the night before the first day back at school, which she had spent with Scorpius. Nothing happened, of course, and she was sure tonight would be no different, but she secretly had her hopes. Julia continued to the couch and took a seat, patting the spot next to her for Scorp. "Oh, and I, er, need to talk to you." She said, blushing as she did so. Tonight would really be the night, she had just hoped that it would turn out her way.

Scorpius walked carefully up the stairs, constantly stumbling. He was usually a well co-ordinated person, but currently he couldn't focus and maintain his balance. They had just come back from the ball, and then had spent sometime downstairs where he had clearly drank to much. Overall, he had had fun at the ball. He had seen his twin, Suzannah, at the beginning but, strangely, she hadn't tried to mess up his day as she usually would have. That was all the better for him, though Scorpius had been glad when Julia agreed that they should leave the ball - it had become quite late by then and he had been getting tired.Now they were at the Three broomsticks, where Julia was staying. He remembered the last time they were last at the Leaky Cauldron, when they had spent the night here, nothing had happened then and Scorpius was certain nothing would now. Before he had had his hopes, but he had since discovered that Julia was already dating Arthur. They had gone to the ball as friends, and he was just escorting her back. Now he would probably just head back to Hogwarts, where he was staying for the break.

He chuckled at Julias numerous tries to unlock the door. When she finally did, Scorpius entered and shrugged out of his coat. He was a bit surprised when she invited him to stay over, he was not quite sure what to make of that but he took it casually. "Thanks, I'll stay for a while, but then I should head back," he replied. The abrupt change in her tone when she said they needed to talk made him curious, and he raised his eyebrows when he noticed she was blushing. "Sure, whats up?" he asked, sitting next to her.

This was it. This was the time, and after this, Scorpius would know everything. Would he simply accept it, or would he make a big deal out of it? Julia wasn't sure; she had been hoping that this wouldn't ruin their friendship, but it wasn't like she could take it back. She had to tell him now, and he was probably already guessing with the change in her tone. Julia was never good at doing things subtly, she was more of a forward person. She had had a great night, and she hoped nothing would be ruined because of her. She assumed that Scorpius would at least be mature enough to be completely honest with her, even if his feelings weren't the same. Scorp was a fairly mature guy, which reassured her somewhat, but she was still worried, nonetheless.

Julia breathed in deeply, and turned her body so she was facing Scorpius. "Erm, well, we've known each other for a long time..." Oh, gosh, this is finally it, She thought to herself, I'm going to do it, just go for it, Jules! Who cares if he doesn't like you back? Julia hesitated for a moment, Ugh, you do, of course, you stupid idiot! After a few more moments of hesitation in her mind, Julia just let it all out. "I think you should know how I feel... about... you." She quickly looked down at her lap, "I mean... I really like you, like a lot. Perhaps a lot more than I should. But it's fine if you don't feel the same way, I just thought that you had the right to know." Julia peeked up from underneath her eyelashes to see his reaction; she hopped it came out the right way.

Rather surprisingly, Scorpius had never actually been in a serious relationship before. During his seven years at Hogwarts he had never had a steady girlfriend. Sure, he was famous and and rich and all, so had had plenty of flings with various girls, but he hadn't cared for any of them. Julia was different though, he actually cared for her as she had been his friend for a long time now. He had wanted them to be more than that for a while, but she had always been taken. For Scorpius, the only other girl he had actually felt like that for was Rose Weasley, but it would never work between them. For one, they didn't quite get along well anyways, and plus she was blood traitor and a Weasley and all. With Julia, he wouldn't have such problems.

Scorpius had to smile, a bit amused at how nervous and embarassed she was. He was comparitively much more relaxed, but was a bit surprised, he hadn't been expecting this at all. She had been dating Arthur hadn't she? And they had just gone to the ball as friends. Still, if she had forgotten about him then Scorpius was not about to remind her, this was what he had wanted after all. "You don't know how long I've been waiting to hear you say that," Scorpius replied with a small chuckle, looking in her eyes. She was very close, wearing a rather adorable shy expression. Well, its now or never, he thought. Inclining his head slightly to the side, Scorpius leaned towards her and pressed his lips against hers.

Wow. That was easy. Easier than Julia had expected. In the pit of her heart, she was fairly sure that Scorp had liked her back, but that didn't calm her nerves. She wasn't even sure if she had told him about Arthur, and how they were broken up, but it was probably fairly obvious now that she told Scorpius that she liked him in that way. Arthur wasn't the best match for Julia, anyway. She was fast paced and complex, Arthur, on the other hand, was a very simple and "old-fashioned" person. Plus, Julia had practically jumped onto that boat almost immediately after Frank's accident. She was devastated, and what she thought she needed wasn't right for her. The two had never officially broken up, but they both knew it was over. She would have to mention that to him later.

Woah Julia thought as she noticed Scorpius' face slowly getting closer to her's. Is this really happening? Maybe I had too much to drink and I'm dreaming this. It's completely rational, well, Scorpius kissing me is completely irrational, isn't it? He would never- She cut off her internal conflict when she felt his lips against her's. Quickly, Julia returned the kiss, gently scooting herself closer to him. The kiss seemed to last forever, but, by the time she pulled away, she was sure it lasted no longer than about three seconds. "I... wow." She breathed afterward. I want more... she thought, but wouldn't dare say out loud. So, she let her body do the talking by leaning in again, pressing her lips to his slightly harder than before, and letting her arms rest on his shoulders.

Scorpius wasn't exactly sure what had possessed him to have done what he did, but he would swear it wasn't quite the alchohol in his system because he had wanted to do that for a long time. The intoxication had just got rid of any inhibitions thad had stopped him from doing this previously. It was strange, he wasn't usually a nervous guy at all, except when it came to Julia. Perhaps it was the fact that they had been friends for so long. As the kiss ended, he braced himself for her reaction. He had always considered Julia to be a rather shy person, so her bold reaction surprised him. Scorpius was pleased though. Her lips tasted wonderful, a mixture of the wine they had just been drinking and her own special flavor. He wanted to drink in every drop she had to offer, so he dropped his bottom lip and renewed their deep kiss and let his tongue gently run along her bottom lip.

They had both gone many long months without ever giving into their attraction to one another, they had never addressed the sexual tension, they had always been just friends and acted as if it was there, and if it did show its little head, it was quickly shoved under and forgotten quickly. But now, it had come up again and Scorpius couldn't ignore it, he didn't want to. He was doing his best to try and stay in control of his actions, but the alchohol in his mind was making that rather difficult. If this had happened months ago, he would've been lighter, softer, but he had kept this all pent up for so long, it was driving him insane. Scorpius wanted her, he couldn't deny that, and kissing her was just a tease, a taste of what he actually wanted. Of course, there was more than just one thing he wanted, but right now, there were certain things pressing at the front of his mind. He pulled her into his lap, letting her legs slide over his, allowing his free arm to move around her waist. "If I'm moving too fast, tell me.." Scorpius said, obviously slightly breathless from the whole thing.

[agh, sorry for taking so long. Been busy with school ]

Oh, God, Julia. You must be the luckiest girl in the world! Scorpius Malfoy! His tongue in your throat! This is amazing! Julia had often referred to the voices she often heard in her mind to be, not her conscience, but her alter-ego. Whenever she was excited or nervous, or anything of the sort, she couldn't get her mind to shut up. At the moment, she was very anxious, and, to an extent, ecstatic. She couldn't believe Scorpius' reaction, though to her he always seemed to be an up-front person. She didn't think he had that much affection inside him; she always knew he had his fair share of hookups with girls, just as she had with boys, but there didn't seem to be anything more. Julia knew she wanted more with Scorpius, more than a hookup, but she wasn't sure if he wanted the same. She didn't want to feel like one of the other girls he had been with. She knew he wasn't that type of person, but she had her doubts hidden in the very back of her head. She didn't want to believe it, so she forced herself not to, and focused on him for the moment.

As he pulled her on to his lap, Julia nearly died on the inside, her mind wouldn't quit it, and she found it difficult to concentrate. "Don't worry, you're fine..." She smiled to him and pulled him closer. She slowly traced her lips up his neck and along his jawline, holding on to his shoulders for support. She still found everything hard to believe; why would Scorpius like someone like her? She was a half-blood! That's enough of a reason for him to not even look at her. Even if they were to date, his family would never approve of her. "Scorp," she stopped for a moment to look at him, "are you sure you want to do this?" She didn't want to ruin the moment, but she wanted to know for sure.

Scorpius wasn't ever really good at commitments. In the past, even when he had honest intentions of being in a steady relationship with a girl, it had never ended well. He could be careless and impulsive sometimes, and often didn't pay attention to potential consequences of his actions. This made it difficult for him to have a steady relationship and he wasn't quite sure he could mantain one with Julia either. He didn't want to hurt her, but anything serious and long term was out of the picture for numerous reasons, but mainly because she wasn't pureblood. Malfoys had been pureblood for centuries and his family would probably go berserk if they found out he was dating Julia. But Scorpius didn't give a damn what his family thought. Currently, he didn't want to think about any of that.

A chill went down his spine as he felt her lips at his neck. He tugged her closer as his lips searched for hers again, but before he could kiss her again she pulled back slightly. He frowned instantly at her question. Scorpius was a little annoyed at her now, he hadn't wanted to think about any of this, but now she had brought it into his mind again. He knew what she was thinking, for he had been thinking of the same thing in the back of his mind. Perhaps, if his mind was clearer, he would have had the sense to stop it. Right now though, he didn't want to stop, he wanted more. "Of course I am love...Trust me, it doesn't matter to me if your half blood," he reassured her, smiling. He didn't wait for her to respond though, he just turned and forced her down onto the couch and let himself lay on top of her. His hands settled on the couch, on either side of her, holding his body weight up off of her. His legs shifted and he let himself get comfortable on top of her, his lips never leaving hers.

There was something about this moment that made Julia uneasy. Of course, she wanted to be with Scorpius- he had been her dream boy for quite some time now. She, without a doubt, wanted a relationship with him, but something in the pit of her stomach told her not to. Sure, he was a sweet guy and all, but he had this look about him; a look that she wasn't sure about. She didn't know whether or not he wanted a relationship, but that was mainly what Julia wanted. She wanted to be loved and cared for, she wanted to get the attention that she never used to get, and still didn't get even at home. At home, her parents were basically never around, they were the type of parents who thought money could buy happiness, or even love. That left Julia deprived for most of her life. All she wanted was her parents to notice her, and her good work, but she never got that kind of attention from them, which had lead her to boys for comfort. Julia tucked those thoughts away to the back of her mind; Scorpius was all that mattered at the moment.

Julia could tell by the look on his face, that he was a bit irritated at her question- if not at her. She wanted to apologize, but decided not to carry out the subject any further. However, his words made her smile. First, he called her "love," which didn't exactly mean much, but it was nice to hear coming from Scorpius. Then, he said that her blood status didn't matter to him. That truly made her think: if he wanted a relationship, would he go against his family's wishes by being with her? That would really stir up trouble for the both of them, and simply would not lead to good things in the future. But what if he didn't want a relationship at all? Then to him, Julia must have been "another one," another girl to dump off in the morning. She couldn't see Scorpius treating her like that, and didn't want to be thinking like that at all, or for now, anyway.

Julia was surprised when he kissed her again, and practically pinned her down to the couch. She was enjoying it, and she hoped that the moment would never end. When she pressed her lips to his again, it felt like an electric shock was sent through the both of them. But it wasn't a bad feeling, it left Julia wishing for more. His lips weren't good enough for her at the moment, and she was quite sure he was thinking the same, judging by his actions. She pulled off his already untied bow tie, and slowly unbuttoned his shirt, being cautious in case she went against his wishes. The moment seemed so unreal to her, she never could have even dreamed of it; and she hoped Scorpius was thinking the same.

Scorpius was thinking about the complications a relationship with Julia could bring, but these thoughts were in the back of his mind. They weren't anything new though. Blood, had always caused him a lot of problems and was one of the reasons he had to end his relationship with Rose. Though she was a Weasley, it was more or less the same thing with Julia and surely it would end the same way? Or perhaps, their relationship didn't have to be to serious, that way it wouldn't hurt them both if and when it ended. He wasn't quite sure what she wanted, or what he wanted for that matter. Scorpius had been with a lot of girls and had usually been unable to make it work. He tried to convince himself that Julia was different, but he had probably felt the same way about a few other girls too. It was troubling, and it made him uneasy, so he banished it from his mind. He was enjyoing the moment, and he didn't want to think about any of that now, perhaps later in the morning when his mind was functioning better.

He was glad that she had stopped hesitating and was kissing him back. Scorpius shrugged the shirt off as she finished unbottoning it, his lips not leaving hers. Gently, he ran his hands down her waist until they reached the hem of her dress, and began to slowly pull it up slightly, exploring the new skin underneath. He didn't go any further, so as to not take her out of her comfort zone. He was quite sure she had done this before, but he didn't want to alarm her. He guessed she would be more willing if they took it slowly, even though the wait was killing him.