Surrounded by the music, Amelia had fallen into the world that the notes created, a world that only she knew existed While the rest of the rest of the castle slept soundly in the world they were given, Amelia created her own. She took solace in the company of the harmony, felt herself rise and fall with the crescendos and diminuendos. As she played, she moved slightly, as if dancing, though not so much as to prevent her from playing well.
”Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
I can't stand myself
I'm being held up by invisible men
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else”
In this room, now, in the middle of the night, Amelia was not the person everyone thought her to be. She was not the quiet girl who did as she was told, who always followed instructions and never questioned authority. She wasn’t the girl through whom her parents vicariously lived, the girl with so many expectations to live up to she didn’t know which way to turn. By herself, with her violin, Amelia was most purely herself.
During the day, Amelia spent her energy on trying to make herself smaller, more acceptable. Her caustic wit, the sarcasm, the fierce independence; it wasn't befitting of the person everyone expected her to be. So she shrank that part of herself, the part that was really alive. Instead, she did the things she was supposed to do; she gave the polite answer, practiced patience and political correctness, and worked to maintain the ladylike appearance her mother was always forcing on her.
But that was okay. Because at night, when she crept out of the dormitories and found an empty space with her violin, she got to experience the world the way she felt it. She could feel everything or nothing, play with the intensity she wished her words could convey, let the passion she felt flow from her fingers to the bow. At night, she got to spite her mother’s wishes, the expectations of her professors, the duty to her parents. At night, there was no one to cramp her style.
Or so it seemed until she heard a voice from behind her.
Amelia hadn’t been anticipating the interruption; lost as she was in the music, she hadn’t heard the approaching footsteps. Her back was to the door, but when she heard the words her imagined world fell away, in the same way the bow fell from her hands. It clattered to the floor, the sound echoing loudly in the absence of the music, and Amelia spun to face the source of the sound.
“What are you doing here?” Amelia asked pointedly, the strain of his presence outweighing the fact that the blonde boy had just given her a compliment. Having been here so many nights alone, Amelia had sort of come to the conclusion that she owned this space between the hours of midnight and 3:00 A.M. The presence of this other person, who looked to be about her age, but she couldn’t say for sure, threw her off, and in her surprise she had forgotten to resume the premise of perfection that she usually held during the day. Instead, she had said the first thing that came to her mind.
Perhaps not the most polite of introductions… Amelia’s mind chastised, but it was too late now to take the words back, so instead she stood staring at the intruder, her violin hanging from one hand and the bow on the floor beside her.