a day without you is like a year without rain!

The bitter cold weather wasn't helping Sarah at all, it was just making thing worse and worse for her. The past month the weather been to go to even go outside let alone to Hogsmeade on weekends which was annoying. Today, Sarah was sitting in front of the fire in the Gryffindor Common room drinking her hot chocolate her mind wondering else where. She done this alot lately due to boredom and she just missed Zandell. These pass months Sarah been going crazy without him, Sarah never knew how much she needed him intil he was gone. No longer to take it anymore she gotten out and grabbed her Gryffindor cloak before heading towards the hospitail wing. After a few minutes she reached the Hopsital Wing but retreated at the door wondering if she should or not. She visited every day and it was always the same,but today she had a gut feeling that it was going to be different. Opening the door she entered the hospital wing and walked over towards where Zandell was and took a seat beside him sighing.

He was still in a coma and the nurse told her he may never wake up from it but Sarah always had hope. "Anything yet?"Sarah asked the nurse softly as she shook her head no as she looked at Sarah with sad eyes. "Zanny please come back to me, I'm a mess without you so please don't leave me here."said Sarah softly. Locking hands with him she kissed him softly on the lips and lead her head down. "Sarah dear why don't I give you a sleeping potion, you look like you haven't slept in months."said the nurse. "To be honest with you I haven't, I been worry about Zandell."said Sarah softly. "I'll be right back dear, I'm going to whip you up one right now so you can take it."said the nurse walking back to her office. "No! please don't I might miss him wake up!"said Sarah in a pleading voice but the nurse kept on walking. Sighing to herself she looked at Zandell and let out a yawn.

About 30 minutes later or less, the nurse came back and made Sarah take the sleeping potion much to her dismay. "It'll help you sleep, besides you been here everyday this week you need some rest."said the nurse softly. Knowing that she wasn't going to win this battle, Sarah sighed in defeat. "If he wakes up please wake me up."said Sarah softly. "Of course dear, now get some rest."said the nurse. As she gave Sarah the medience Sarah felt her eyes dropping. She refused to leave Zandell so the nurse made her a cot beside Zandell's bed. Looking at Zandell one last time she laid down in her cot and whispered to him. "I'll see you when I wake up Zanny I promise."said Sarah softly. Letting out a yawn her finally closed and sleep took over her, but her hand was still locked into Zandell's fefusing to let go of him.

Zandell was usually a good flyer, a really good flyer. He was always practicing his flying, and he rarely ever made mistakes, and when he did they were never bad. At least, they weren't.. until this time. He must have been sad about everything that had happened, that was the only reason everyone saw for what happened. He'd crashed, horribly and he'd falled off of the broom. Someone had slowed his fall, but it had been hard enough for him to not be able to wake up.

Since then, he'd been in the Hospital Wing for almost two months now. St. Mungo's was the more comfortable choice, but someone wouldn't let him be taken there. He was slowly getting better though, his wounds had healed, but he wouldn't wake up. Something was keeping him from waking up. No one knew what it was though. Except Zandell of course.

"Why do you want to go back..? You want to go back to that girlfriend of yours? The one who now hates you because of something she doesn't understand..?"

"She doesn't hate me.. We've fixed everything.. She knows what happened. I love you.. and I just want to be with her. Let me go back to her.. please..."

There was a mental fight going on within him. Of a subconscious that wanted him to remain as he was. To never go back, from fear of Sarah hating him. No matter how hard he fought, Zandell knew it was useless to fight back anymore.. his inner self was too scared to fact the truth. Not that he knew what that truth was.

Zandell moved slightly, his hand twitching, gripping Sarah's hand a bit tighter. "Sar.. Sarah.." he called subconsciously, his eyes still closed. Zandell wanted to go back to her.. if only his subconscious would let him...

Sarah woke up to Zandell squeezing her hand tightly and calling out her name. Setting up Sarah sat up and looked at him with tears in her eyes. "I'm here Zandell and I'm not leaving you, I love you to much to do that!"said Sarah. "Please just wake up Zandell, I need you!"said Sarah softly as tears escaped her eyes. Sarah didn't realize how much she needed him intil he wasn't here, it was weird how love effected you.

Sarah heard about what happened to Zandell, and she was getting blamed for doing this to him. To be honest, Sarah did blame herself for this, it was her stupid pride that gotten in the way of fixing things with everything. For the longest time she hated him and Alice for backstabing her, when it was just a stupid misunderstanding. Now because of a stupid misunderstanding she was losing the one thing she cared about more then anything in the world.

Looking at Zandell sadly she gripped his hand and squeezed it before she kissed them softly. "Zanny this is all my fault, my stupid pride gotten in the way of things, you don't deserve me Zanny I'm horrible to you!'said Sarah softly. "But even if I am, I hope you can forgive me and we can start over but you have to come back to me please!"said Sarah in a pleading voice.

"See..? I told you. She doesn't hate us.. She loves us, and you know we love her. You have to let me go back. I love her.. so much.. and she loves us.. we can't just leave her. You can't make me leave her.. you love her too much, just like I do."

"I'm scared. What if she's just saying that so you'll wake up? What if its only a joke and as soon as you wake up, she'll leave? I don't want to take the chance."

"So you'd rather leave her there. To suffer, and be depressed? Wouldn't you rather see her happy? Wouldn't you prefer to be by her side? I know you would, so don't deny it."

"I.. I don't know.."

"Please."

"... Fine."

Zandell squeezed her hand again, tighter this time. He moved his head to the side slowly, and made a grunting noise as he tried to wake up. His eyes slowly fluttered open, and he winced a bit at the lights of the room. Being in the darkness for two months, sure did take a toll on you.H coughed softly, letting his eyes adjust to the lighting. His eyes soon focused on Sarah, who was crying and he smiled sadly at her. Lifting his hand to her face, he wiped her tears away and he looked at her with sleepy eyes. "I'm sorry.. for making you worry.." he laughed softly.

Sarah looked at him and smiled happily at him before shaking her head chuckling. "It's ok Zanny, I'm just glad your awake!"said Sarah softly. "I been going crazy without you around, although people say you fell because of me"said Sarah softly. "Although it's probably true, all this is my fault."said Sarah looking down. Although Zandell would probably tell her it wasn't her fault, she refused to believe that it wasn't. If it wasn't for her foolish pride and misunderstanding he wouldn't be here.

Life was full of jealousy and misunderstandings, Alice forgave her but she still felt like she didn't forgive herself, which she didn't. How could she think that Zandell would ever hurt her? What the bloody hell was she thinking?!? Zandell loved her more then anything in the world, he wouldn't hurt her. But then again it was just a misunderstanding that went horribly wrong. Although it was time to start a new chapter and make a fresh new start.

Zandell tried to sit up in the bed slightly, holding his head as he did so. The headache he had was immense and horrible, he felt like his head was about to explode, but he shook his head at Sarah. "No Sar. Don't say that and don't believe what they tell you." he told her. "I fell because I was distracted, I had a lot on my mind. I didn't pay attention to what I was doing or where I was going. That's why I fell, not because of you."

He probably wasn't making her feel any better by saying that he had a lot of things on his mind at that time, but it was true. And sure one of those things was the whole misunderstanding with Alice, but it had been his fault for not paying attention to where he was flying. It had been his fault not hers. Zandell felt bad that she was made to believe that she was the cause of his fall. He wasn't going to let her think she was the reason, even if to some extent it was because of her and Alice and everything that happened.

Sarah shook her head at him. "Yeah and the me and Alice issue was probably one of them."said Sarah sighing. Although no matter what anyone told her, she still thought this was her fault. "Why am I so horrible to you when all you ever did was love me?" Sarah asked softly. Sarah didn't want to believe she was a horrible person, but deep down she really was. What if this was just a sign that was waiting to happen? Sarah felt horrible about the whole thing, she wanted to make it up to Zandell. "I know your not able to fly yet, but when we do I got you a new broom seeing how your old one broke."said Sarah.

"I'm so sorry Zandell for everything, I haven't been a very good girlfriend to you, but that's going to change now I promise."said Sarah. No more getting jealous over stupid things, Zandell loved her and she loved him that was all that mattered. Sarah was going to be a good friend and girlfriend to Zandell and Alice. Maybe they could go back to the way they were before this whole mess started.