Snow fell with arrogant abundance. It was as if it had remembered how, just a week ago, the inhabitants of this world had nothing good to say about it. Almost everyone who claimed they knew snow hated it. It was the groaning and moaning done throughout the land that must have reached the ears of something that had eagerly awaited his chance for the rest of the past year. Yet, even as the snowy vengeance was unleashed on the land, it did not seem to bother anyone at all. No one at the courtyard seemed bothered, at least. It was almost as if you could ignore the scarves, the coats, the gloves, and the white manna, and frame it beside a happy summer's day. Of course you could not fool anyone with the similarities; or rather, the lack thereof. Yet, sometimes, even illusions did not need to be given. A lie that was bought, even knowingly, could be believed. Anything could be believed. You just needed to have decided to, or not to.
Alaric turned away from the warmth of the scene. He didn't believe in it. It wasn't enough. He had watched the boys bump their way through a group of unsuspecting First Years foolishly attempting a game of Gobstones. There was no malice in it at all, no. It was just supposed to be funny, being funny with First Years for their lack of comprehension of sarcastic teasing. You couldn't blame them either. This was a group of First Years who craved very much the attention of the Upper Years, who in turn were opportunists for any instance to prove their superiority of years. It was all a meaningless game of approval and power play, albeit harmless, that Alaric really could not bring himself to be interested in.
At this point, he didn't know how he had managed the unspoken love-hate relationship he had with the other boys. It was possible that they hadn't yet figured out for themselves that he really did not belong. Yet, as Alaric would have it, they were all deceived about his enthusiasm to be part of the gang. He was always going to try, though, wasn't he? It didn't matter whether he liked them, and it didn't matter whether he liked what he was doing. All that mattered was that he tried to be part of the scene, part of their world. It was the world he was offered involuntarily by the universe. He was going to have to take it, just, because. Really, though, he barely had objections to it. It wasn't that he was unhappy. He just felt ...
Old. He felt old. Alaric watched the boys; and in that moment, he couldn't comprehend them. He felt sure they couldn't understand him either. Yet, it didn't matter. Why should he? And why should they? He couldn't help being a spectator almost every time. That was not what he was taught to be. He was a Krum, for Krum's sake. His father had wanted him to be a do-er. Mother, too, had told him not to let anything or anyone stop him. Yet, sometimes, he couldn't do it. He just didn't buy it all. Yet, it was as if he was plugged into all of these. And the only form of motion was forward. He couldn't stop it. But did he have a choice? His body was always a participant, but no one could plug or unplug his mind. It was lost in translation.