Make a wish upon a star

Shifting her feet around the floor, Alice nervously waited. She usually wasn't an impatient person at all, but today she just couldn't wait any longer. She barely even convinced herself of doing this in the first place! Waiting would just make things even worse. She just wanted to do it once and for all, get this over with, and worry about what happens afterwards later. After nearly chickening out and leaving the tower a few times, she decided to gaze upon the starts for distraction. Perhaps they would bring her come comfort and solitude, but they never did.

She made her letter quite clear and made sure Zandell would receive it. He knew she would be waiting for him here, precisely at eight o'clock. Of course she tried to make her letter as much 'normal' as she could to avoid sounding like a lunatic, if that was even possible. So if he received her letter and red it, why wasn't he here already? He is almost never late. Or maybe he figured out what she wanted to do and say, maybe she was too obvious. Or perhaps she was just going crazy. Yes that last thought definitely made the most sense out of everything for now.

After a few moments though, she heard a strange movement on the stairs. Her heart started beating fast and she had to grab onto the chair near to control her body movement. She had never been so nervous in her life. Which was honestly silly even. Zandell was one of her best friends, she has known him forever. This shouldn't be that weird. Well it certainly won't be easy but Alice wanted to tell him the truth. He deserves to know everything. As the door now swung open, a large grin grew upon her face as she was sure it was him now. His voice and cologne gave him away. And Alice knew him for way too long not to recognize his footsteps just outside the door.

Zandell was a bit confused as too why he had been asked to come up here. He knew that it was Alice who was waiting for him at the top of the spiraling stairs that he was now climbing, but what he didn't get was why she had wanted him to come in the first place. Her letter had been a bit sketchy, and odd. She said she needed to tell him something but the way she had written it made him think that it was something bad. She sounded impatient and a bit worried in her letter, it actually made Zandell worry about what was going on.

The boy stopped at the top of the stairs and looked down them, wondering if he should turn back. He quickly shook the thought out of his head though, that was rude and quite frankly stupid of him to do. Alice had been his friend for as long as he could remember, just like Sarah and he wouldn't just walk away from his friend like that. Whatever it was that she needed to say, he was going to be there to listen to it. Although, he couldn't shake the odd feeling he had as he approached the door.

He grabbed the handle of the door but hesitated in opening it for a moment before he took a deep breath and pushed it open. He was immediately placed with figure of Alice holding onto a chair near her in front of him. "Er ... Hey Alice. You wanted to talk to me?" he said, trying to sound as casual as his nervousness would allow him too. The posture she held right now told him that what she had to tell him was serious, she seemed so nervous about it, more so than he was.

When Zandall walked in, he seemed nervous as well. Although surely not as nervous as Alice was. "Um...yeah I did. Thanks...for coming", she started, not knowing what else to say. This was all becoming real to her way too fast. A sudden fear of losing Zandell as a friend if all of this went terribly wrong creeped into her mind. After all, he might take what she has to say either very well or very badly. And it was both extremes that confused and worried Alice. But she just had to tell him, she had no other choice. She missed her chance when she was just a little kid, which was just typical in her view. But now she wouldn't accept such a thing anymore. She had to be honest, even if she was risking so much with the truth. She didn't want to hide anything from her friends, especially Zandell. The pretending has just became too difficult to play out anymore and honestly she didn't wanted to play that part anymore. It was a time for change.

She thought for a while before coming here of how she would tell him. There were so many questions and details to be decided upon? Would she tell him straight await or start with a light topic a first? Is it better if they are sitting or standing? Should she be just blunt or moderately reserved? But all the planning that Alice had spent just went threw the window. She couldn't remember a single part of her then so perfect and achievable plan. The only things that could really help her was if she calmed down, but that seemed very hard to do. She noticed Zandell's confused and worried expression and gave him an reassuring smile.

"Yeah, sorry for being so... crazy lately. I'm sure my letter must have confused you a bit. It's nothing really... I just wanted to talk to you about some things. And well...it isn't the easiest thing to do or say...and I wasn't sure how you would react exactly. So I picked this place because I know no one could overhear us. That's the last thing I would need.... But don't worry! It's isn't that bad I promise. Well I guess it depends on how you see it..." said Alice softly, trying to put on a smile.

Alice sounded so strange and worried to Zandell and it made him furrow his eyebrows together in confusion. There was definitely something on her mind that she needed to say, but it seemed like she couldn't find the way to say it.This all just made Zan even more confused than he already was. It was something very serious and important to her, and he didn't understand one bit what was going on. The way she spoke right now was fast and somewhat elusive and Zandell took a step toward her. "Alice, calm down. What's going on what do you need to say?" he asked her, putting his hands on her shoulders to reassure her.

She didn't want anyone over hearing what she was about to say to him. That caused more uncertainty in Zandell than before. What could she want to tell him? "Alice are you okay?" he asked her. "Is something wrong? Are you in some kind of trouble?" he continued. " ... Are you pregnant?" he finished after a moment of thinking. She would probably react badly to his last question but it was a possibility that he wasn't going to oust. He didn't know what to think about this. She seemed so indecisive about the entire conversation.

Zandell didn't even know what else to say to her. But honestly that wasn't his fault. She wasn't giving him much to go by and everything that had just happened with Sarah was really throwing him off. He wasn't in any position to even be thinking straight at this point. It was like his entire life was being thrown upside down and he wasn't even sure how he was going to react if more bad news came.

Zandell put a hand on her shoulder as he talked, probably to calm her down. But this only had the opposite effect, only making her more nervous. She didn't even realize she was almost shaking. And as he expressed his worry for her, she knew she had to stop. This was just making things a lot worse. She didn't want to make Zandell worried about her at all, which he obviously already was. "I'm calm... really I am", said Alice. Well that wasn't completely true, but at least she was trying.

"No...It's nothing like that really. I'm not in trouble, you don't have to worry about that at all." Her lips opened in shock as she heard his next question and her cheeks turned red. How could he even say such a thing! Or even think it! But then again Alice was acting strangely enough for him to have to consider even the strangest possibilities. "WHAT? Zandell!! How could you... even ask that? No... of course not! It's nothing like that at all..." she started saying quickly. wanting to make sure he understood she wasn't in any kind of trouble. Especially not in a trouble of that kind. "No actually it's more about you..." said Alice as she barely shaped these words with her lips. Even such a simple thing was difficult for her to say. And she was only at the beggining.

With a deep breath and sight, Alice tried to continue what she was saying. "It's just that... I don't know. I really care about you I guess. I always have, since we were little kids. You were my best friend for a while and we hanged out a lot and... well... I never got a chance to tell you how much I actually... well liked you. And I know this is kind of awkward and strange. But I just had to tell you because I thought you should know about it. Now it might be silly to you but it really isn't silly to be. Although I'm not sure why I'm doing this in the first place..." said Alice and she paused, thinking of what else to say and eagerly awaiting his reaction.

The reaction she gave to his question was the one he was expecting, and he believed that she wasn't pregnant at all. It made him calm down a bit and he said, "Alright, alright. I believe that you aren't but then what is it?" This was really starting to stress him out and he didn't like it at all. She said that it was more about him and he raised his eyebrows in surprise. "Me?" he asked pointing to himself. Now that just confused him more. "What about me?" he asked her, he didn't understand anything that was going on with her right now.

Zandell tilted his head to the side when she began to say that she cared about him and liked him and that made him laugh a bit. He thought it was going to be something serious and bad. "I don't think you're silly Alice." he smiled at her. "I care about you too and I like you too. You're my friend, one of my best friends." he said, not fully getting what she was trying to say to him.

"You had me really worried though. I thought it was something bad." he told her obliviously. He placed a hand on her shoulder again and sighed, "You should really practice how you tell someone things, I thought I was going to have a heart attack because you made it sound like what you had to say was going to ruin your life or something." he said smiling at her. "Just don't start off so suspensfully okay?" he said, and pulled her toward him to give her a hug.

Alice felt huge relief after she told him the truth. She felt so much better know what he knew everything. He was one of her best friends after all. But it was his reaction that surprised her the most, in a good way of course. He seemed so relaxed and even happy with the news. Alice expected...well something different. At least confusion at first. But that wasn't the case at all. This might just be the best thing she has done in a while, tell him the truth. As, by the way he acted at least, it seemed that he felt the same way. Was it really possible? That it wasn't just a silly crush on her side. That it was maybe even mutual. It was scary to even think about it as an option but maybe it could be true. Now wasn't the time to quit and to become a chicken.

"I told you... it wasn't anything that bad. I just...wasn't sure how you would react" said Alice a bit shyly. She laughed at his words and realized that she was a bit over dramatic about this. "I'm sorry. It's definitely not that. I'm not about to ruin my life in any way..." And then he smiled at her, but in such a sweet way that Alice couldn't help but melt. Small butterflies came to her stomach and her cheeks because flushed. She really didn't know what to do right now. But somehow this night seemed to be so perfect, beyond anything that she could ever imagine. Unexpectedly, he pulled her closer to him in a hug. Feeling his warm body next to hers, she couldn't help but smile. She placed her hand into his and it just felt right. It didn't even feel weird. It seemed so silly now, worrying about these things. Without even thinking about it, she came closer to him and placed a soft kiss upon his lips.

Sarah was still depress over the fact that she would be leaving at the end of the week, it was just a never ending nightmare. Needing to get away from it all, Sarah headed up towards the Astronomy Tower, a place no one would ever think to find her. Running up the narrow stairs up to the tower, she wouldn't let any tear fall until she reached the tower. Finally reaching the top of the tower breathing rather hard from running she leaned against the wall for a minute to catch her breath. She was surprise she still felt that, seeing how she was so numb in pain.

A few minutes of catching her breath Sarah opened the door but as she did she stopped short as she seen Zandell and her best friend Alice kissing. At the sight of it Sarah's heart just sank to the floor. "How could you."said Sarah softly with tears in her emerald eyes. Looking at them one last time, Sarah slammed the door and ran downstairs crying. She didn't stop until she was in the Gryffindor Girls' dorm on her bed crying her eyes out.

Sarah didn't think her world could anymore bad, boy she was wrong to think that wouldever happen to her. Getting her wand that was beside her bed stand she flicked it around her bed putting the silence charm around her. Closing her curtains she just laid there and cried not caring about anything else but the hurt and pain that was inside of her. Oh well, no one ever said life was fair or it was just a fairytale with a happy ending like the stories were.

Now he understood.

Zandell was taken so off guard that he didn't even have time to say anything before he felt Alice's lips on his. His eyes widened and he put his hands on her shoulders and tried to push her away from him. It was too late though. By some kind of bad luck, Sarah walked in on them in that exact moment and saw them kissing. Zandell had finally managed to push her away and he stared at Sarah with his mouth open. He looked between the two of them and when he heard what Sarah said he reacted. "Sarah -" was all he managed to say before hse slammed the door and ran away.

The door's slam was so loud and hard that a rush of wind went by him, moving his hair slightly as he stared at the now closed door. He looked back at Alice and frowned, "Why'd you do that?!" he demanded. He didn't give her a chance to answer though, his hands dropped from her shoulders and he ran out of the Astronomy Tower, chsing after Sarah. "Sarah!" he called out to her, but she was already pretty much out of site, and if Zan knew her, she was already at the Gryffindor Tower by now. That was somewhere he couldn't go, and he cursed to himself quietly.

He finally understood what Alice had been telling him though. He had thought that she meant it as friends initially, but he'd been completely wrong. Wrong and oblivious. All of this was his fault. He shouldn't have ever gone up to the tower in the first place. He had been having a bad feeling about it, and he should've listened to that bad feeling. But he hadn't and now look where it had gotten him. He probably just ruined everything with Sarah ... It wasn't fair. He slammed his fist int a nearby wall and growled - nearly screaming - more from anger than from pain. "Why am I such an idiot?!" he growled at himself.

The door slammed open and Sarah came in. She immediately pulled from Zandell, but Sarah already saw them. What she didn't expect was her reaction. I mean why would she care so much who did she kiss? Sure they were good friends, and maybe she had a right being upset because Alice didn't tell her about her crush. But she shouldn't be that upset about it all. And somehow she seemed to be talking to more Zandell than her. That confused Alice a lot. She wasn't sure what was going on at all. And then she heard Zandell yell after Sarah... things made sense a lot more now.

This was like her worst nightmare. She felt like she betrayed her friend and made the biggest mistake of her life. Did she mean it? Of course not! But that didn't matter right now. She was so involved with her own crush on Zandell that she didn't even realize that he might be taken by someone else. That he might have a girlfriend already. Alice did hear him mention something about a Sarah, but she had no idea that he meant her friend Sarah!! Nor that they were dating! She would have never done this is she knew.... things would have been so different if she just knew this before.

She had to make this right. She couldn't just leave things in this huge mess she created. She just had to do something, anything. Running after Zandell, she shouted his name. After finally catching up with him, she grabbed his shoulder gently. "Zandell....hey... calm down please" she said a bit awkwardly. She didn't know what to tell him now, but she had to at least try and fix things. "I had no idea... This wasn't supposed to turn out like this at all! I'm so sorry I just... Sarah is my friend!! I had no idea I swear... I would never do this. Why didn't you tell me you had a girlfriend?"