She couldn't tell her mother what was going on right now. She had enough with taking care of her two year old sister, and she had to deal with her husband and work and all of that. Damitrius couldn't afford to have her mother do anything rash if she found out about everything that was going on in her life right now. Everyone kept blaming her for Sapphire's death and she honestly didn't understand why. She wasn't anywhere near Sapphire when she died, and she was her best friend, why would she even think of killing her? A best friend wouldn't kill the other, it would be like killing yourself. Which right now, didn't seem like a bad idea to her. But she knew that it was impossible for her to do that, no one would let her even attempt it.
Still, you can't get rid of the thoughts and the more you tried to forget them, the more they floated in your mind, waiting for a chance where they could come out and make you do something stupid. That was why Damitrius always wanted to have someone around her, even when she wanted to be completely alone. Today though, she was alone, no one would know that she had come up to the Owlery, and it was technically a bad thing. For all they knew she could be trying to throw herself out the window right now - it had crossed her mind before. That wasn't going to happen though, she was up there to send her mother the weekly letter she had been told to send through out the remainder of the year. It wasn't to her father, she never sent him anything, the letter was for her mother, as it always was.
She entered the Owlery and gave a low whistle, she hoped no one else was in there right now and even if they were, she hoped they didn't get scared. Her owl swooped down from a perch on the other side of the Owlery and it landed on her arm, the talons gripping, and pinching, her skin slightly. Damitrius winced a bit but didn't make any sudden movement to frighten her owl, "Hey Ash." she told the male snow owl. "Do me a favor and take this to my mum please?" she gave the owl the letter and it flew off with the letter in its mouth. Damitrius watched it as it disappeared into the horizon.