Times Are Chaning

July 8
Dear Journal,

I can't believe I'm still doing one of these at age forty-three. I thinking it may be the only thing keeping me sane anymore. Edgar has moved out on his own, much to my dismay. But I have to say I don't blame him for wanting to get away from Ernie, I love Ernie dearly but I wish he would stop working so much. When he works the way he doing right now he gets ornery. I worry so much about Claire, one of these days she going to flirt with the wrong guy and get herself in trouble. I just can't stop thinking about how much Amelia has grown, I miss days when she was trying to help me cook but ended up torching the kitchen instead. Drew is becoming quite a young man, I have to say he is a lot quieter then his siblings. I've noticed my kids are growing up and it's making me what to do everything I can to help them have a safer future. I haven't told anyone that I've applied for a job at the ministry, I know Ernie would hate it if he knew but this is my life not his.

July 11
Dear Journal,

Amelia just left for a days in Australia with an friend. I didn't want her to go but Ernie let her go. I just don't think it was a good idea to yet her go so far away given the state of the wizarding world. Maybe joining the Ministry was making me more nervous about letting my kids out of my reach. I was talking with my dad the other day, I'm starting to understand why they weren't a big part of my life now, they were so occupied with making a differences they forgot to balance it out with family. I'm just trying to balance it out with my kids. If Ernie won't do it, I will.

July 23,

Ernie and I got divorced. I think it is for the best. We aren't as close as we once had been. His life was the farm and mine our kids and the Ministry. We were too different to work. I just hope my kids will forgive me. I just can't forget the look of horror on Amelia's face when I told her. She looked so sad, I wish I could have kept her away from the harsh reality longer but I can't protect them forever. She'll get over it and look back one day to see it was the best choice I had.

July 29,

I found a rental house in Bristol while my dad tries to see if any of the Bones houses are livable. Nothing major has happened otherwise. Life is rather boring right now. Get up, work, go home, sleep.

August 24,

It’s been a while since I wrote last. Life got in the way. Amelia got in a broom accident so I caring for her since then. I hope she is doing okay at Hogwarts and if anything happens to her there I swear I will cause mass chaos if something or someone hurts my ‘baby’ girl. Let’s hope I never have to do that.

Everyday seems to be a new problem, a new issues and it feels like I can never catch up. There is always something. I guess this is the life of single parents. It's hard but I refuse to go back Ernie, there is nothing there anymore.

October 21,
Edgar and Claire are gone. Dead. I can’t believe it still. My whole world is caving in around me. My two oldest children won’t be coming home for Christmas. All the things I wish I could have said is haunting me but all I can do is talk to gravestones. It hurts so much.

I’ve been trying to stay strong. I’ve been fighting with Healers about what to do with Amelia. Easier said I always get the last say and they don’t dispute it with me. It was a lost cause to argue with me.